my babyygirlll. 10-5-89 - 2-25-07

[fuzzienav3l]

.. Sunday I lost my bestfriend. & i feel like shit. We hadn't seen eachother in a year. we haven't spoke in four months. But i loved that girl with all my heart. We were in one of our stupid fights like we always get into.. and we don't talk for awhile.. but we always make it back together.. well not this time. I always thought soon enough soon

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[deathismine]

i miss her too...i loved her probably as much as you did...if not more, in a different way...i miss her so fucking much...but i am worried about you, chels...so far, it's gone : car accident, suicide, car accident, suicide, car accident...i keep having reoccurring nightmares about you being the next one in the pattern...but you're drunk while you do it...i had that nightmar4e shortly after we hung up with each other on monday...that's why i got so worried/pissed off that you were drunk...i do NOT want to lose you chels...i won't be able to handle it - i am barely handling this one...please, no more drinking in memoy of her...she wouldn't want that, i know it...i see the dead...i talk to them...they talk to me...she told me not to drink the pain away...not to bleed the pain away...not to join her so soon - it wasn't my time...to make sure i take care of "her"...i'm pretty sure that "her" was meant to be you...i know it doesn't sound believable...but trust me - i'm telling the truth and it scares me shitless everytime i see them - especially the ones i know and love...please, don't let me lose you...you need to be going to my funeral when we're older, i won't even be able to make it to your funeral...i'll be dead the second i find out you did something terrible if you do...

i love you forever and always chels...

<3 kristinly