The good news and the bad news...
I guess I'll start with the good news...
I had a great Christmas. Christmas Eve was amazing as always...I NEVER get to see my dad's side of the family really, so every year I look forward to the one day where I get to see them all. Most of them I only see once a year, and Christmas Eve is that day. It was fun, played pool: me and my crazy Uncle Jim vs. Todd and my brother at first, then we won and faced my dad and my cousin Shannon. We only lost once :) Food was awesome as always...everyone always brings good stuff, my mom made sweet n sour chicken wings in her crock pot and they were sooo good. I hung with Todd and Anthony most of the time since, well they're my age so I've been closest to them my whole life and now that I never see them I spend all the time I can with them. Todd talked about what he's doing now...he and his friends are making music, he has a studio or whatever in his house now at his computer and they record things there. Todd is producing some of it. He brought a cd over for people to listen to, so Anthony, my Aunt Pam and Uncle Jan, my bro. and I all went out to listen to it. It was hip hop type stuff, not really my thing but I stayed out there one, because it's Todd's music and two, I never get to talk or hang out with him any other time. Well, for someone who doesn't like that style of music, it really wasn't that bad at all. I'm impressed with it...I hope it gets heard and out there, it's great to see him working hard toward a goal. So anyways, after that we came in, hung out, then I finally got together a game of Scat, which is kinda like a non-existant rule in our family that we only play on Christmas Eve. That was fun, but I lost both games :( Then everyone left and my dad, brother and I played poker...and for the first time ever, I almost won...then it got late and I became careless cuz I was falling asleep at the table and just wishing I were in my bed. That day I got $40 from my grandma, 10 from my aunt and uncle, and 10 from scratch off tickets that I got from my other aunt and uncle, along with a couple ornaments and some candy. Then I got the Seinfeld season 5 from my parents. Some of the best episodes are on that season. Oh, and Friday I went bowling with Seth and Amanda and a couple of their friends...we went to Best Buy first, and Amanda felt bad that I got her something and she didn't, so she got me Ice Age :) Today was cool too, got woken at like 12:30, opened presents, 25 at best buy, the Longest Yard, the 2nd Pop Culture version of Trivial Pursuit, and some other stuff. The rest of the day was spent watching movies and laying on the couch.
Which brings me to the bad news:
I have been feeling like such shit lately. Nothing in particular, but just an overall feeling of crappiness. And it's not like I don't know why...it's because I'm a fucking idiot. You see, I have this stuff called Asacol...I'm supposed to take 4 when I wake up and 4 when I go to bed. Well, I kinda keep forgetting to do that because of my idiocy. I just cannot bring myself to remember and I don't know why. I'm mean for goodness sake, I feel like crap, and I STILL can't remember to take my damn medication? Wtf is wrong with me? I'm constantly in some kind of pain, sometimes bad, sometimes not so bad. Mainly my stomach, but I'm also getting killer headaches and joint pain. I'm having another problem that I've had in the past, just like my freshman year in college when I had the biggest appetite in the world, then I get full off of like 5 bites as if I had already finished the meal. So I've lost a lot of weight, which I wouldn't normally mind if it was in a healthy manner...but I'd much rather have a little flab in the stomach area than be thin because I'm never hungry enough to eat a full meal.
I'm so tired all the time, but I'm not sure if that has anything to do with this, or if it's due to sleep deprivation. I should work on going to bed at an earlier hour. But it appears that I will have to start on that one tomorrow night considering it's already 4am. For the past couple of days, my wrists, legs, neck and back have been in pain too...not excruciating so I'm not too worried. I think the wrists and legs might just be aftermath from Friday's bowling. It hurts when I walk, it hurts when I go to open my fridge, it hurts when I lift my damn glass to take a drink of water. Now, my neck and back, I have no idea what's wrong...I just woke up one morning and they hurt a little. I thought maybe I slept on it wrong, but it's been like 3 days now...it's gotten better but my neck still hurts when I put my head in certain positions.
Blah...I hope that once I can finally get myself back on a regular medication schedule, everything wrong with my body can just go back to normal...I hope I feel alright by the ski trip. No fuckin' way in hell I'm missing it, but it'll be much more fun if I am feeling well, that's for damn sure.
I had a great Christmas. Christmas Eve was amazing as always...I NEVER get to see my dad's side of the family really, so every year I look forward to the one day where I get to see them all. Most of them I only see once a year, and Christmas Eve is that day. It was fun, played pool: me and my crazy Uncle Jim vs. Todd and my brother at first, then we won and faced my dad and my cousin Shannon. We only lost once :) Food was awesome as always...everyone always brings good stuff, my mom made sweet n sour chicken wings in her crock pot and they were sooo good. I hung with Todd and Anthony most of the time since, well they're my age so I've been closest to them my whole life and now that I never see them I spend all the time I can with them. Todd talked about what he's doing now...he and his friends are making music, he has a studio or whatever in his house now at his computer and they record things there. Todd is producing some of it. He brought a cd over for people to listen to, so Anthony, my Aunt Pam and Uncle Jan, my bro. and I all went out to listen to it. It was hip hop type stuff, not really my thing but I stayed out there one, because it's Todd's music and two, I never get to talk or hang out with him any other time. Well, for someone who doesn't like that style of music, it really wasn't that bad at all. I'm impressed with it...I hope it gets heard and out there, it's great to see him working hard toward a goal. So anyways, after that we came in, hung out, then I finally got together a game of Scat, which is kinda like a non-existant rule in our family that we only play on Christmas Eve. That was fun, but I lost both games :( Then everyone left and my dad, brother and I played poker...and for the first time ever, I almost won...then it got late and I became careless cuz I was falling asleep at the table and just wishing I were in my bed. That day I got $40 from my grandma, 10 from my aunt and uncle, and 10 from scratch off tickets that I got from my other aunt and uncle, along with a couple ornaments and some candy. Then I got the Seinfeld season 5 from my parents. Some of the best episodes are on that season. Oh, and Friday I went bowling with Seth and Amanda and a couple of their friends...we went to Best Buy first, and Amanda felt bad that I got her something and she didn't, so she got me Ice Age :) Today was cool too, got woken at like 12:30, opened presents, 25 at best buy, the Longest Yard, the 2nd Pop Culture version of Trivial Pursuit, and some other stuff. The rest of the day was spent watching movies and laying on the couch.
Which brings me to the bad news:
I have been feeling like such shit lately. Nothing in particular, but just an overall feeling of crappiness. And it's not like I don't know why...it's because I'm a fucking idiot. You see, I have this stuff called Asacol...I'm supposed to take 4 when I wake up and 4 when I go to bed. Well, I kinda keep forgetting to do that because of my idiocy. I just cannot bring myself to remember and I don't know why. I'm mean for goodness sake, I feel like crap, and I STILL can't remember to take my damn medication? Wtf is wrong with me? I'm constantly in some kind of pain, sometimes bad, sometimes not so bad. Mainly my stomach, but I'm also getting killer headaches and joint pain. I'm having another problem that I've had in the past, just like my freshman year in college when I had the biggest appetite in the world, then I get full off of like 5 bites as if I had already finished the meal. So I've lost a lot of weight, which I wouldn't normally mind if it was in a healthy manner...but I'd much rather have a little flab in the stomach area than be thin because I'm never hungry enough to eat a full meal.
I'm so tired all the time, but I'm not sure if that has anything to do with this, or if it's due to sleep deprivation. I should work on going to bed at an earlier hour. But it appears that I will have to start on that one tomorrow night considering it's already 4am. For the past couple of days, my wrists, legs, neck and back have been in pain too...not excruciating so I'm not too worried. I think the wrists and legs might just be aftermath from Friday's bowling. It hurts when I walk, it hurts when I go to open my fridge, it hurts when I lift my damn glass to take a drink of water. Now, my neck and back, I have no idea what's wrong...I just woke up one morning and they hurt a little. I thought maybe I slept on it wrong, but it's been like 3 days now...it's gotten better but my neck still hurts when I put my head in certain positions.
Blah...I hope that once I can finally get myself back on a regular medication schedule, everything wrong with my body can just go back to normal...I hope I feel alright by the ski trip. No fuckin' way in hell I'm missing it, but it'll be much more fun if I am feeling well, that's for damn sure.