Yes so. I have some sort of plague/flu type thing. Apparently it's only a cold, but if so it's a DEADLY KILLER LETHAL cold which is driving me insane
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...sorry for you. *cough* I'm sick too. My stomach huuurts... T_T *hugs* I hope you're now better though, darling. It's been a few days since this entry.
Awww... It's never nice to be alone on Valentine's day, though in Finland the tradition is a bit different, because Valentine's Day is actually more a day for friends to send eachother cards and gifts and stuff. Teenaged girls love it, and love sending eachother big hearts that say I LOOVEE YOUUU YOU'RE MY BEEST FRIIEEED 4 EVA!! and so on and so on... XDDD So, I haven't ever really felt the Valentine's Day's blues like you English-speaking people seem to do.
I was gonna tell you that you are so young that your dating life is only supposed to begin now, within four-or-so years... But then I remembered that lonelines stings the same, no matter what age you are. And I don't want to say a cruel, belittling thing like that... But try to weather the worst by remembering that there are most likely things ahead of you, waiting for you once you get there. Maybe it won't help the feeling of being unloved right now, but perhaps it could give you hope?
At your age, the only kiss I'd gotten so far was a big, wet one, that was given to me by a drunk old man who managed to surprise me when I was sixteen. And I didn't know anyone, anyone who would have been gay. I was afraid to even THINK of that aspect of myself, because there were absolutely NO genuinely positive things/people around me. And no internet. And I was badly scarred from school too, with absolutely ZERO self-confidence. So yes, it is possible to do worse than you. I actually think you're doing pretty well. /sermon
I think it's gonna be alright, Hattie. :) I think you will soon be with someone, sooner than you even think. ♥ *huuugs!* ^________^
I'm glad your therapist is fine. It's nice that you finally found a good one.
How many gay adults do you know trough the net, then? :) Five? Three?
Meanie! XDD No, it's ok, my parents told me to stop being silly when I said about the onions thing. But that's gone away now, thank God, although I get momentary relapses now and then. And yes, I'm feeling a fair bit better, which is good, given that I have to go into London tomorrow (x______x;)
It's ok, I'm not really that upset about Valentine's Day. Or upset at all really =D It's just one of those things. Anyways, I always get a Valentine's card every year (from my gay best friend... :D ) so it's all good.
::huggles you:: :3 I can connect with quite a bit of your upbringing - it's always hard when you're the only one who's gay or whatever, and I had a rough time at school when I was smaller, although thankfully it's a lot better now. But I guess the positive thing would be that you came out of it the caring, loving, great person you are now. Which is a sign of definite strength, I think :D
I think you will soon be with someone, sooner than you even think. (0___________0) I so hope you're psychic... XDDD You sound pretty certain, so I'm gonna trust you =D
I don't know how many, actually... Not many. Three or four, I guess? But I think my friend has a point about the lack of gay role models in RL, given that I know no out gay people and no strong gay couples. And I was raised in an upper-middle-class, conservative, Roman Catholic home, which kinda breeds homophobia and general intolerance... D: I guess I may be ever so slightly repressed... ::coughs::
Hey. Sorry, forgot to comment right away, and so I ended up never doing it... *sigh*
Your icon is hilarious! *laughs*
I'm sorry to hear that you've had a hard time, too... :( Though, I'm happy that we've met, so we can share that, and about know what the other one is talking about. And you almost made me cry when I read your comment, I swear you did...TT___TT *huggles you* *sniff* You say such lovely things! They make me think I didn't suffer for nothing. Lol... ^^' So thanks for giving me some purpose!! Lol!
And... if those above things are true for me, then they most certainly are true for you as well. ^_~ You don't sound bitter, which means you know how to turn negative experiences into something to learn from instead of letting them make you hard or uncaring.
You are going to go to uni, where they have a society for gay kids, and you seem to be pretty "out". And you are pretty, and you are smart, and you are funny and witty, and friendly. I think it's more a question of you managing to keep the pushiest ones away, than anything else... *laughs* And a question of you managing to avoid the: "I-think-I-like-you-but-could-we-please-not-tell-anyone?" kind of girls. You being out and at least outwardly comfy with yourself could very possibly attract the unsure, frightened and confused ladies.
My advice would be that be friendly to them, but don't start dating them even if you liked them. If you want someone to get serious with, I'm sure that you can find a girl who is ready for it.
Haa. Yes. Ever so slightly... Lolz... XDDD But you are doing a wonderful job being strong and making room for your true self. It's important to just be able to be you, with no pressure. (Unless being you involves slaughtering children and setting houses on fire...>___> ) And it's great that you have a best friend, who is also gay. *nod* That really makes you true best friends, since you are able to share everything that comes with being gay with eachother. I'm quite envious of you, actually. :) I hope she is doing fine in her life, too. *nod*
My mom has one male gay friend, but I didn't even know he was gay untill someone told me. They never talk about it. It's kept really hush-hush. He always talks about his "friend" that he did something with... But I guess habits like that stick to you, when you've grown up in a world, where you could be thrown to jail for kissing someone of your own gender... @____@
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...sorry for you. *cough* I'm sick too. My stomach huuurts... T_T *hugs* I hope you're now better though, darling. It's been a few days since this entry.
Awww... It's never nice to be alone on Valentine's day, though in Finland the tradition is a bit different, because Valentine's Day is actually more a day for friends to send eachother cards and gifts and stuff. Teenaged girls love it, and love sending eachother big hearts that say I LOOVEE YOUUU YOU'RE MY BEEST FRIIEEED 4 EVA!! and so on and so on... XDDD So, I haven't ever really felt the Valentine's Day's blues like you English-speaking people seem to do.
I was gonna tell you that you are so young that your dating life is only supposed to begin now, within four-or-so years... But then I remembered that lonelines stings the same, no matter what age you are. And I don't want to say a cruel, belittling thing like that... But try to weather the worst by remembering that there are most likely things ahead of you, waiting for you once you get there. Maybe it won't help the feeling of being unloved right now, but perhaps it could give you hope?
At your age, the only kiss I'd gotten so far was a big, wet one, that was given to me by a drunk old man who managed to surprise me when I was sixteen. And I didn't know anyone, anyone who would have been gay. I was afraid to even THINK of that aspect of myself, because there were absolutely NO genuinely positive things/people around me. And no internet. And I was badly scarred from school too, with absolutely ZERO self-confidence. So yes, it is possible to do worse than you. I actually think you're doing pretty well. /sermon
I think it's gonna be alright, Hattie. :) I think you will soon be with someone, sooner than you even think. ♥ *huuugs!* ^________^
I'm glad your therapist is fine. It's nice that you finally found a good one.
How many gay adults do you know trough the net, then? :) Five? Three?
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It's ok, I'm not really that upset about Valentine's Day. Or upset at all really =D It's just one of those things. Anyways, I always get a Valentine's card every year (from my gay best friend... :D ) so it's all good.
::huggles you:: :3 I can connect with quite a bit of your upbringing - it's always hard when you're the only one who's gay or whatever, and I had a rough time at school when I was smaller, although thankfully it's a lot better now. But I guess the positive thing would be that you came out of it the caring, loving, great person you are now. Which is a sign of definite strength, I think :D
I think you will soon be with someone, sooner than you even think.
(0___________0) I so hope you're psychic... XDDD You sound pretty certain, so I'm gonna trust you =D
I don't know how many, actually... Not many. Three or four, I guess? But I think my friend has a point about the lack of gay role models in RL, given that I know no out gay people and no strong gay couples. And I was raised in an upper-middle-class, conservative, Roman Catholic home, which kinda breeds homophobia and general intolerance... D: I guess I may be ever so slightly repressed... ::coughs::
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Your icon is hilarious! *laughs*
I'm sorry to hear that you've had a hard time, too... :( Though, I'm happy that we've met, so we can share that, and about know what the other one is talking about. And you almost made me cry when I read your comment, I swear you did...TT___TT *huggles you* *sniff* You say such lovely things! They make me think I didn't suffer for nothing. Lol... ^^' So thanks for giving me some purpose!! Lol!
And... if those above things are true for me, then they most certainly are true for you as well. ^_~ You don't sound bitter, which means you know how to turn negative experiences into something to learn from instead of letting them make you hard or uncaring.
You are going to go to uni, where they have a society for gay kids, and you seem to be pretty "out". And you are pretty, and you are smart, and you are funny and witty, and friendly. I think it's more a question of you managing to keep the pushiest ones away, than anything else... *laughs* And a question of you managing to avoid the: "I-think-I-like-you-but-could-we-please-not-tell-anyone?" kind of girls. You being out and at least outwardly comfy with yourself could very possibly attract the unsure, frightened and confused ladies.
My advice would be that be friendly to them, but don't start dating them even if you liked them. If you want someone to get serious with, I'm sure that you can find a girl who is ready for it.
Haa. Yes. Ever so slightly... Lolz... XDDD But you are doing a wonderful job being strong and making room for your true self. It's important to just be able to be you, with no pressure. (Unless being you involves slaughtering children and setting houses on fire...>___> ) And it's great that you have a best friend, who is also gay. *nod* That really makes you true best friends, since you are able to share everything that comes with being gay with eachother. I'm quite envious of you, actually. :) I hope she is doing fine in her life, too. *nod*
My mom has one male gay friend, but I didn't even know he was gay untill someone told me. They never talk about it. It's kept really hush-hush. He always talks about his "friend" that he did something with... But I guess habits like that stick to you, when you've grown up in a world, where you could be thrown to jail for kissing someone of your own gender... @____@
The world really has changed... Thankfully.
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