the blues
its been a while since ive posted, mainly because its been a little drab around here. more hot pots, lots of rain, lots of people staring, jialing says shes not gay, etc. etc.
i love hot potting, dont get me wrong but i run out of things to talk about when my vocabulary only goes so far as pleasantries and casual conversation. i shouldnt be so glum. i mean im in effing china! but the language thing is really getting me down.
the thing about people staring is this: at first i laughed at myself thinking it was kinda cute that i was the only one around but now its kindof getting on my nerves. i wanna be like, "hey, im just a person like you. you dont have to follow me around and stare at me while i shop." those are the scary psycho-starers. i think it comes from all of the billboards and the magazines that have been shoved in these people's faces all of their lives. i look around the city and in every advertisement, theres some white face selling something. i must be a walking, talking, breathing representation of that. i guess thats fascinating. wow, me, a model, ha!
but me and jialing are getting along great, even though shes not gay. i mean, women here are under tremendous pressure and shes no different so shes expected to get married and shes making herself do just that. its kindof sad.
chrissmus is coming, that means im turning 27. send me some santa peeps, will you?
i love hot potting, dont get me wrong but i run out of things to talk about when my vocabulary only goes so far as pleasantries and casual conversation. i shouldnt be so glum. i mean im in effing china! but the language thing is really getting me down.
the thing about people staring is this: at first i laughed at myself thinking it was kinda cute that i was the only one around but now its kindof getting on my nerves. i wanna be like, "hey, im just a person like you. you dont have to follow me around and stare at me while i shop." those are the scary psycho-starers. i think it comes from all of the billboards and the magazines that have been shoved in these people's faces all of their lives. i look around the city and in every advertisement, theres some white face selling something. i must be a walking, talking, breathing representation of that. i guess thats fascinating. wow, me, a model, ha!
but me and jialing are getting along great, even though shes not gay. i mean, women here are under tremendous pressure and shes no different so shes expected to get married and shes making herself do just that. its kindof sad.
chrissmus is coming, that means im turning 27. send me some santa peeps, will you?