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[fuunsaigi]

i feel really really sad. but i dont know what to think of it anymore because im always sad or mad at something so ive decided to stop talking about it. i cant talk to logan about it because he thinks im selfish and i cant talk to any one else about it because i dont have that many friends. i cant really make friends because im a tottal bitch wack job and i know a majority of people i know dislike me to begin with so is it even really worth it. im mad with someone for kind of blowing me off last night. im mad at my parents for being stupid. im mad at so many things i dont know wheater im rightfully upset or not. most likely not...

help...

im generally not a sad person. if any of you have known me for more than a year would know how bouncy i used to be. now im not. and i dont understand why... i just want someone to be there for me... i want a friend... someone who wont judge me and be angry with me and tell me when i need to shut up and tell me when im big headed and tell me that im stupid and lazy and shitty...

thats what i need...