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ive had the fucking worst night of my life
i cut my thumb on a deli slicer... it was the most painful thing ever. actually it was more numb at first and i held it so tight that it didnt feel like anything. my boss brought me to the hospital and i just cried the whole way there. tara came for me and i waited for a doctor. i was terrified to look at my thumb... apparently the top was hanging off, ive been trying to ignore it. i thought i was going to need stitches but the doctor said she just had to biund it very tightly and it will grow out and heal. sooo... yeah. i was verry happy when she told me that and i hugged her out of sheer joy... i tried to make light of the situation even tho i cried sporadically. anyway then she cleaned it, i kinda looked and all i saw was a hunk of white and some blood.
then she gave me a painkiller. first i went back to work to fill out an accident report. then tried to drive my car home. and my luck? i lost the painkiller they gave me!!! thus i had the worst night of my life... i would sleep for 20 mins, wake up, and be in a rridiculous amount of pain. over and over again. now im up and trying to forget this happened. god i want to die right now, i am in so much pain. basically using my right hand is impossible. im typing this with my left.
just... fuck. i am the hugest idiot
i cut my thumb on a deli slicer... it was the most painful thing ever. actually it was more numb at first and i held it so tight that it didnt feel like anything. my boss brought me to the hospital and i just cried the whole way there. tara came for me and i waited for a doctor. i was terrified to look at my thumb... apparently the top was hanging off, ive been trying to ignore it. i thought i was going to need stitches but the doctor said she just had to biund it very tightly and it will grow out and heal. sooo... yeah. i was verry happy when she told me that and i hugged her out of sheer joy... i tried to make light of the situation even tho i cried sporadically. anyway then she cleaned it, i kinda looked and all i saw was a hunk of white and some blood.
then she gave me a painkiller. first i went back to work to fill out an accident report. then tried to drive my car home. and my luck? i lost the painkiller they gave me!!! thus i had the worst night of my life... i would sleep for 20 mins, wake up, and be in a rridiculous amount of pain. over and over again. now im up and trying to forget this happened. god i want to die right now, i am in so much pain. basically using my right hand is impossible. im typing this with my left.
just... fuck. i am the hugest idiot