Mother do you think shes good enough.... for me?
thats correct, jenn met my mom. my real mom. im so sorry for her. amazingly enough things went really well. she was extremely nice. i feel so bad for her. i always pictured her becoming a little old woman with cats... sadly shes little, becoming older, and has 2 cats. its just sad. i wish she didnt look so lonely. it actually made me want to cry. i guess the more i think about it the more i shouldnt have gone because i feel so bad. she sits at home, alone, all day. what kind of life is that? it makes me want to cry.
i had an amazing time with jenn. i love being with her. it feels like everytime i leave her now i get so much sadder inside. i hate leaving her house because i know deep inside im supposed to be with her.
i dont think i have a happy thought in my head right now. besides the fact that my mom is lonely, im lonely without jenn, i have another sad thing on my mind. rita, lonely. i feel so bad about everything happening and i feel like its all my fault and i wish i coudl make her feel better but i know that time apart is good for us. i just really wish like i didnt feel so guilty. i dont know.
jenn wrote about how she thinks rita needs a guy. i think so as well and id like to go to more hXc shows to help her find one. i really think me and rita and jenn could all get along better if rita had someone that she loved. i know she cares for chris but i dont think it will ever become serious. he just doesnt seem that motivated.
i just want all this depressed negative energy to go away. i hate feeling like this and i just want to be happy. everything seems to be going alright in my life, but im depressed about the sad things in other people's lives. i wish i could change things to make others happier. oh well
GREGGER
i had an amazing time with jenn. i love being with her. it feels like everytime i leave her now i get so much sadder inside. i hate leaving her house because i know deep inside im supposed to be with her.
i dont think i have a happy thought in my head right now. besides the fact that my mom is lonely, im lonely without jenn, i have another sad thing on my mind. rita, lonely. i feel so bad about everything happening and i feel like its all my fault and i wish i coudl make her feel better but i know that time apart is good for us. i just really wish like i didnt feel so guilty. i dont know.
jenn wrote about how she thinks rita needs a guy. i think so as well and id like to go to more hXc shows to help her find one. i really think me and rita and jenn could all get along better if rita had someone that she loved. i know she cares for chris but i dont think it will ever become serious. he just doesnt seem that motivated.
i just want all this depressed negative energy to go away. i hate feeling like this and i just want to be happy. everything seems to be going alright in my life, but im depressed about the sad things in other people's lives. i wish i could change things to make others happier. oh well
GREGGER