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wow. im really tired today. i really miss jenn. shell be back saturday. i dont want her to be back staurday i want her back right now. i need her to help me stay calm lately. its been really hard. i was on the verge of moving out the other day because my dad is such a doosh. i cant stand him anymore. he continues to treat me like a little kid. i can stand the fact that i get no respect from him. ive tried hard all my life to please him and to get him to respect me. im at this point in my life where i just dont care. i want to leave. i want to say fuck it. i feel like ive tried so hard for so long and finally its time to quit. i feel like i need to stop trying-like ive wasted too much of my life trying to make him happy when its a lost cause. i dont know. i almost want to call my mom. im starting to wish more and more that we can restart and have a new relationship. i think i would get along a lot better with her than my dad. i wouldnt mind moving in with her and having the same kind of relationship with her that my sister did. i wont though. i cant. if i did i know that id have to go to another school and leave jenn and rita. i know i couldnt live without them. i dont know. im trying to write this but i keep losing my train of thought because my sister is talking to me and its hard for me to think and talk at the same time. i think im gonna call jenn now. i love you all.
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