pretty dresses....pfft...
I just got my Angel Season Three DVD's and watching "Waiting in the Wings" made me wanna get dressed all pretty. I really didn't realize that it would end up in the end making me feel like shit about myself. I just wanted to dance around and play dress up and feel all pretty. Since I don't have any dresses, I hit up Danielle's closet. I picked out this really pretty, glittery, silver and black dress. Boobs not hanging out, ass not hanging out, just short enough to make you feel sexy and still classy. Hell, didn't know Danielle had something classy. But you know, since she's taller than me, it's not classy on her. But it was so pretty. So I put it on and humored myself for awhile and tried to ignore my flabby arms and extreamly gross knees...and lack of boobs. Just the overwhelming sence of "hey she is playing dress up and does NOT belong looking pretty and fancy."
I just wish that I could be a whole new person. Somebody that can do that. Get dressed up and look like a knock out. Look comfortable in my own skin. I just want to be girly. I just want to be pretty. I'm not like all of those other girls.
And I hate it.