beautiful amazing perfect boyfriend happiness indulge-fest
Am wildly in love with new boy. Can't really call him new boy anymore I guess, it's been 3 months now. I'm half "Is that all?!?!" and half "shit it's been that long already?!?" Mostly is that all ... I feel like we already know each other so well, like we're a part of each other. Every time we are together it's 'big plans' this and 'I will build you a treehouse' that and 'i will fix ___ moderately in need of improvement thing next time I am here.' Wow. I can't believe my luck. From making out in a basement shower of an unoccupied rental house, not even sure if he might in fact have a wife and thinking "in this exact freaking precise moment I all of a sudden realize that this is NOT just innocent vacation fun. Oh good Christ. This is something." to "we will alternate who comes to visit the other" and "with my mad business skills I can make us rich." I don't doubt it for a second. He wants me to go ahead with my phd ... says i'll likely get a good job afterward, even if not in academia. He will probably move closer to me after his school is done...though we are not far away anyway.. 5 hours. Aaahhhh..... what miraculous thing did I do in a past life to deserve this... Kidding... but seriously. I owe you one, universe.
His only worry with dating me and being twelve years older was "dating a younger girl .. she might not be ready for marriage and a family as soon as I am... I don't want to be too old when I have kids." OMG. So you are gorgeous, speak a million languages, do every kickass / extreme sport that I also do, are ridiculously incredible in bed, hopelessly and sexily obsessed with logic and reason as badly as I am, and will very likely be highly successful after getting your CMA ... AND if I stay with you I don't have to wait ten or whatever years before it is feasible and appropriate that I have children?? Shiiit. Wow. Damn. Obviously I want to / have to savour these first few months - and I am, I will, I love that we have so many firsts still to share together - but part of me wants to just fastforward to the end of the crazy endorphin rush, to that brain chemical-light inevitability where I realize I'm crazy about him anyway... I love that I met him while he's a poor student like me with lines of credit and lofty ambitions rather than a few years from now ... recession or no. This dude can and will hustle.
Not that I wouldn't adore him just as much if he were a penniless future biologist like me ... but seriously. He is going to be a management accountant. I never pictured myself with someone with that kind of career...I guess I've never pictured myself with any kind of 'real person' because all the boys I've dated have been undergrads or grad students. He won't have to move to godknowswhere to get a job, like an academic partner would. I love all the parallels between our personalities despite the differences in our fields. Highlights how we each have skills that are so transferrable. He's so smart and serious but also incredibly silly and funny, not afraid to just be goofy and kidlike..hahaha in NO way acts like what I thought a 'real person' or 'adult' of 36 would act. Hah. He teases me and then apologizes for it. "I bug you because I like you..." Adorable. He is so easy to talk to because we both think so analytically and in such similar ways. He looks for the most efficient way to do everything, he's always correcting me on random little things and telling me how I could be doing things better. It sounds weird but that's a really important thing I have always demanded of partners - anyone I have been with who doesn't kind of insist near-perfection from me in a lot of ways just gets on my nerves and I lose respect for them. I need a partner with a strong personality and a lot to teach me, otherwise I lose interest and/or start pushing them around. Probably a terrible trait but at least I recognize it! Anyway, at 36 (to my 24) he definitely has a lot to teach me ... and I feel like his experience / practicality / ever-apparent intelligence and amazing talent keeps the bolder parts of my personality in check, makes me constantly strive for excellence athletically / academically / personally... and keeps me running back for more...
I think I have found a good one.
* swoon *
His only worry with dating me and being twelve years older was "dating a younger girl .. she might not be ready for marriage and a family as soon as I am... I don't want to be too old when I have kids." OMG. So you are gorgeous, speak a million languages, do every kickass / extreme sport that I also do, are ridiculously incredible in bed, hopelessly and sexily obsessed with logic and reason as badly as I am, and will very likely be highly successful after getting your CMA ... AND if I stay with you I don't have to wait ten or whatever years before it is feasible and appropriate that I have children?? Shiiit. Wow. Damn. Obviously I want to / have to savour these first few months - and I am, I will, I love that we have so many firsts still to share together - but part of me wants to just fastforward to the end of the crazy endorphin rush, to that brain chemical-light inevitability where I realize I'm crazy about him anyway... I love that I met him while he's a poor student like me with lines of credit and lofty ambitions rather than a few years from now ... recession or no. This dude can and will hustle.
Not that I wouldn't adore him just as much if he were a penniless future biologist like me ... but seriously. He is going to be a management accountant. I never pictured myself with someone with that kind of career...I guess I've never pictured myself with any kind of 'real person' because all the boys I've dated have been undergrads or grad students. He won't have to move to godknowswhere to get a job, like an academic partner would. I love all the parallels between our personalities despite the differences in our fields. Highlights how we each have skills that are so transferrable. He's so smart and serious but also incredibly silly and funny, not afraid to just be goofy and kidlike..hahaha in NO way acts like what I thought a 'real person' or 'adult' of 36 would act. Hah. He teases me and then apologizes for it. "I bug you because I like you..." Adorable. He is so easy to talk to because we both think so analytically and in such similar ways. He looks for the most efficient way to do everything, he's always correcting me on random little things and telling me how I could be doing things better. It sounds weird but that's a really important thing I have always demanded of partners - anyone I have been with who doesn't kind of insist near-perfection from me in a lot of ways just gets on my nerves and I lose respect for them. I need a partner with a strong personality and a lot to teach me, otherwise I lose interest and/or start pushing them around. Probably a terrible trait but at least I recognize it! Anyway, at 36 (to my 24) he definitely has a lot to teach me ... and I feel like his experience / practicality / ever-apparent intelligence and amazing talent keeps the bolder parts of my personality in check, makes me constantly strive for excellence athletically / academically / personally... and keeps me running back for more...
I think I have found a good one.
* swoon *