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Ever feel like you are in the midst of incredible things, like you know that God is doing some major things. Yet in the midst of it all you feel completely overwhelmed as well.
That is how I feel today. Since Friday afternoon when I started talking to David Blackwell from 24-7 prayer to this moment, things have been a roller coaster.
Right now I can't help but to watch the clock and countdown to the time that my mom is supposed to have surgery. I totally don't feel mentally prepared for it. When I talked to her on Sunday she didn't have a date for the surgery and then this morning when I woke up and checked my email I had an email saying she was having surgery at 6:30 and would call me later. (6:30 her time is 7:30 my time....at this point 13 minutes away.)
Either she flat out lied to me about not having a date for the surgery or her gallbladder stuff progressed seriously and they moved her into a timeslot quickly. Either way I am not a happy camper because either she lied to me, which I can't stand. Or her health is worse than she told me, which goes back to lying, which I can't stand.
And then I check this random hotmail account I have and discover that yet another DJ has cancelled on us for Cornerstone. He wasn't a headliner but he was the next thing to it that night. I understand that things didn't work out for him, but I hope he didn't just throw the chance away.
And then it also dawned on me that today is June 21st. My 12 year anniversary of being clean and sober. In the midst of everything it seems kinda just another thing.
Say some prayers for me.