Fuck.
This weekend was fucking weird.
Weird dreams. Weird drama on set. Weird doctor that doesn't know anything.
I've been trying not to get down about shit lately but, everything kind of caught up to me all of the sudden and I had a breakdown last night.
Made some drunken calls that I regret. Nick had to talk to me for like an hour at 4 in the morning just to calm me down. And I didn't really get calm. I just got more and more upset until I was about to pass out. Thinkin' he's pretty worried right now.
Haven't broken down like that in a good bit but, I'm noticing more and more that when I do it, it gets a lot more intense. Instead of growing up and getting over certain aspects of my past and pressures of the future, it gets worse. I'm consistently dissatisfied by the world and people's selfishly motivated actions.
Getting hard to have the desire to care. I don't think I can stop it but, it's something I feel is becoming pointless.
Fuck. I wish this didn't happen. Really in need of some therapy right now. And sobriety. Going sober until I find out how to fix this.
Weird dreams. Weird drama on set. Weird doctor that doesn't know anything.
I've been trying not to get down about shit lately but, everything kind of caught up to me all of the sudden and I had a breakdown last night.
Made some drunken calls that I regret. Nick had to talk to me for like an hour at 4 in the morning just to calm me down. And I didn't really get calm. I just got more and more upset until I was about to pass out. Thinkin' he's pretty worried right now.
Haven't broken down like that in a good bit but, I'm noticing more and more that when I do it, it gets a lot more intense. Instead of growing up and getting over certain aspects of my past and pressures of the future, it gets worse. I'm consistently dissatisfied by the world and people's selfishly motivated actions.
Getting hard to have the desire to care. I don't think I can stop it but, it's something I feel is becoming pointless.
Fuck. I wish this didn't happen. Really in need of some therapy right now. And sobriety. Going sober until I find out how to fix this.