Damn.
The death of anyone I've ever known has always been extremely upsetting to me. More so it seems than with other people (not trying to demean anyone else's emotional process, though. that reaction can make sense). It's the most final and heartbreaking situation because there's absolutely no undoing it. Ever. Most anything involving people has at least the opportunity for resolution.
For some reason, though, I can't help but wonder if sometimes I get so upset more because of the person lost, the memories of others passing that it brings, or that it's another reminder that that's the last bit of unknown for everyone. It's hard to see, for me, why people don't get more moved by a death. These are 3 fairly upsetting things that just inevitably come up when someone goes. I'm terrified of experiencing any more of it and I'm not even half-way through my life.
Anyway. Whatever. If anyone ever needs to chat about that kind of stuff I'd be an ear because it's something I should, maybe we all should, think about some more.
For some reason, though, I can't help but wonder if sometimes I get so upset more because of the person lost, the memories of others passing that it brings, or that it's another reminder that that's the last bit of unknown for everyone. It's hard to see, for me, why people don't get more moved by a death. These are 3 fairly upsetting things that just inevitably come up when someone goes. I'm terrified of experiencing any more of it and I'm not even half-way through my life.
Anyway. Whatever. If anyone ever needs to chat about that kind of stuff I'd be an ear because it's something I should, maybe we all should, think about some more.