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Oh God I am stressed out...
So-
Yeah, I think most've you have heard, but- yaaaay, me and Roz are engaged. Really happy about that- and thank God, too, because it's reminding me how damned important it is to work through this.
Richy really has been an inconvenience, and I hate the person I am when I deal with him. Anything about him, really. And now I'm being asked... I'm being asked to do something I just can't do. I want to. But I can't. I can't control Roz. I can't control Chiaki. And they hate my advice- they hate my apologies- they hate my sympathy. But I love them, damn it, and that's why I worry, and it frustrates me to high heaven that that causes them to be angry with me.
When you love somebody, and try to help them, and all you get in reply is a bold-faced questioning of your motives...
Damn it.
They have no idea how convenient it could be for me if I took the easy way out.
But I'm not going to, Mark. I'm sorry.
...I know it'd be better for everyone, but I can't do it. It's not my call.
So-
Yeah, I think most've you have heard, but- yaaaay, me and Roz are engaged. Really happy about that- and thank God, too, because it's reminding me how damned important it is to work through this.
Richy really has been an inconvenience, and I hate the person I am when I deal with him. Anything about him, really. And now I'm being asked... I'm being asked to do something I just can't do. I want to. But I can't. I can't control Roz. I can't control Chiaki. And they hate my advice- they hate my apologies- they hate my sympathy. But I love them, damn it, and that's why I worry, and it frustrates me to high heaven that that causes them to be angry with me.
When you love somebody, and try to help them, and all you get in reply is a bold-faced questioning of your motives...
Damn it.
They have no idea how convenient it could be for me if I took the easy way out.
But I'm not going to, Mark. I'm sorry.
...I know it'd be better for everyone, but I can't do it. It's not my call.