the weegabes are sad
I -really- miss Mercedes today...
not just the kissykissy goo goo missing either... this is that terrible deep down inside ache for the one I love.
I feel really horrible. I want to talk to her...
You're probably thinking "Then just call her!" Well it isn't that simple...
First off I don't have her number anymore... -_- and I probably should've memorized it... but my memory isn't the greatest.
secondly, I'm scared to death of her step-dad finding out about us. =/ I don't want to lose everything over one phone call... and he usually always picks up.
I feel terrible for not calling. -__- I think her online friends have called her ten times more then I ever have. and since I'm her -real- boyfriend I should be calling everyday... =o= twice a day... just to say "how are you my love?" and listen to how her day went.
she says it's ok that I don't call... and she understands... that made me feel a little better for awhile... but then, does that really justify that I haven't called her enough?
I'm sorry mercedes... I really am. I love you so much, and I can't even bring myself to call your house because I'm scared to lose everything we have. -_-
But I promise I'll make it up this christmas... I really will. It'll be the best time ever. No mistake.
I love you mercedes...
(it's funny how venting on LJ makes things feel a little better... but then again, there's no cure for a stressed gabe then a mercedes >_>;;; *hopes she comes online*)
not just the kissykissy goo goo missing either... this is that terrible deep down inside ache for the one I love.
I feel really horrible. I want to talk to her...
You're probably thinking "Then just call her!" Well it isn't that simple...
First off I don't have her number anymore... -_- and I probably should've memorized it... but my memory isn't the greatest.
secondly, I'm scared to death of her step-dad finding out about us. =/ I don't want to lose everything over one phone call... and he usually always picks up.
I feel terrible for not calling. -__- I think her online friends have called her ten times more then I ever have. and since I'm her -real- boyfriend I should be calling everyday... =o= twice a day... just to say "how are you my love?" and listen to how her day went.
she says it's ok that I don't call... and she understands... that made me feel a little better for awhile... but then, does that really justify that I haven't called her enough?
I'm sorry mercedes... I really am. I love you so much, and I can't even bring myself to call your house because I'm scared to lose everything we have. -_-
But I promise I'll make it up this christmas... I really will. It'll be the best time ever. No mistake.
I love you mercedes...
(it's funny how venting on LJ makes things feel a little better... but then again, there's no cure for a stressed gabe then a mercedes >_>;;; *hopes she comes online*)