wow i'm so confused right now
u kno, maybe i'm wrong again. i thought that it was actually possible to change someone but maybe i'm wrong, i guess its tru that once u r sumthing then u will always be that same thing no matter how hard u try. i also started letting words actually mean sumthing to mean which seems to be turning into a huge mistake, that is the last time i go against one of my rules. son of a bitch, i can't freaking sleep because i have shin splints or sumthing and it hurts like a bitch so that is why i am writing this enetry at like 12:30. my mind is also really active thinking and thinking so that is another reason why i can not sleep. i think i have taken advantage of things sort of like the american citizens during the roaring twenties. i had a great life before and it seems to be all going down hill from one simple thing. It's like a dominoe effect one thing leads to everything gone. sort of liek the crash of the stockmarker on oct. 29, 1929 and things went wrong like dominoes and we ended up in the great depression. i honestly do not want to end up into anything that bad when this is all over. yea well it's crzy how i go on and on about this stuff when i don't even have a story or explanation for this.