It seems I'll be returning to the rest of my life earlier than expected.
Nick is leaving tonight, no doubt about it. Daniele is distraught and upset about it, angry that she can't even give him a sympathy vote. In her talk with Dick well into the early morning, she told him that she doesn't believe Nick was the 2nd vote last week like everyone else thought, and she even bet Dick dinner on it and said that if she was right, then Nick should come too.
It's really sad in that it took her a long time to trust him and the whole reason she did was because of how this nomination went down. It showed true colors, especially his, and she's been more attached to him in the last 3 days than she was in the last 3 weeks. She knows what she's losing, both in the game strategically and personally, and it's killing her.
I watch BB for a lot of reasons, but mostly because of the human emotions that become involved. I always need someone to root for, to care about. In the last two years, it was so easy with Janie/Kaysar/Howie. When this season started, I was afraid I wouldn't like anyone, but Nick stood out to me right away and he became my favorite.
After being burned last year so bad with Will and Janelle, a "showmance" was the last thing I wanted. But there was something so sweet about those two, so intrinsically tragic. It started as light flirting, never meant to go anywhere at all. He had said that she was off limits to him because she had a boyfriend, but that he got along with her so well that he couldn't help but hang with her more than the others. It was never meant to go anywhere, but emotions grew for him and it changed his game.
How can that not be something I'd want to watch? I'm a romantic at heart, and seeing the big, buff football guy turn to mush around this seemingly cold-hearted girl was enough to keep me tuning in. On her end, she was an odd one. I loved loved LOVED her sense of humor and really especially liked that Nick was one of the only people who could appreciate it. She was cautious and very wary of his big, cheesy lines that - at the time - he probably didn't mean 100%. But eventually, he did. Eventually, his light flirting got him caught up in her and she started feeling something back.
It was a sweet, torturous ride for the last month, watching this thing develop. Her breakdown on the hammock with her dad over Nick and her boyfriend showed us all that her feelings for Nick were growing stronger than she ever wanted them to. And instead of backing off, she grew closer to him, because he really was her only true friend in the house. The others were quickly turning on her. I don't find her faultless, I think she can be bratty and catty and bitchy at times (hey, who isn't?), but with him, she softens and she's just pure joy. Even their fights - while frustrating - are fascinating to watch. Both stubborn, both needing to be right, both caring too much to leave the other one alone.
The time came and she had to decide how she wanted to play the game - with Nick or for herself? She chose herself, understandably, because she still couldn't trust Nick 100% and others were getting into her head. But this last week has really shown her who he is, how true he is with her, and her feelings for him have grown by leaps and bounds. She defends him now, whereas before she stayed quiet. She's gone for him, it's so very obvious due to the fact that she knows he's leaving and instead of distancing herself, possibly trying to save her outside relationship, she only drew herself closer to him, latching on even harder. I don't think she ever wanted to hurt her boyfriend, but I also don't think she would've felt this way about just anyone. It sucks for her boyfriend, no doubt, but you can't help how you feel sometimes. She's in a horrible position and she's losing the only sanity she has in that house. I feel for her, she opened her heart to Nick and let some walls down and she never expected to do that.
I'm curious to see what he says tonight in his speech. He's told her he's going to be speaking to HER, declaring his feelings for her on national television. I'll be interested to see if he goes through with it. And after he leaves, I don't expect Dani to cry on the couch for hours like Janie did after Howie left. I don't expect her to win HOH and exclaim, "This is for you, Nick!" the way Janie always did for Kaysar. No, I expect her walls to go up higher than before. I expect a supremely cold bitch to come out of the other side and declare war on the house. Or maybe I'm just HOPING for that! lol She knows they're all after her, she knows that them taking Nick out weakens her and she's realizing why they did it now. A little late, but at least she knows.
And she's the only one left I'm truly pulling for. I hope she takes a few of those bastards out on her way down.
