wow, this entry is kinda random
So, i really should be working on that stupid senior isses position paper, but i honestly don't have ANY drive left to do ANYTHING that deals with senior issues. This paper just seems so ridiculous to me, especially since rosie and baddly basically flat out told us that they're "really only going to be ready our topic sentences". How fair is that. I'll probably do it in photography tomorrow...
Lately i feel as if i've been acting strange, almost rollercoaster like, and for once, I can not blame any of this on "womanly problems". I've been getting overly worked up over every little thing, and then not really caring about anything that happens to me. I hate it when i get this way because I'll generally lash out at people who didn't do anything wrong to me, and then ignore the people I should be lashing out at.
I feel that I'm turning into my own worst enemy...
My mother...
I feel that I DESPERATLY need to get away from my family for a good long while. Due to my random work scheduals and what not, I've been spending a lot more time at home, which is good in some ways (my mother isn't mad at me for never being home) but then it's really bad in some ways (my mom complains to me 24/7). Here are the things I've been feeling like I want to do lately, but not being able to:
-hanging with ballet friends (A LOT)
-going on a road trip/vacation of some sort
-working out
-spending days on end with andy
-doing completely nothing
-going shopping
-sleeping
-going to concerts
-cuddling
-being myself...
this may seem utterly selfish, but i don't care. at some point, i'm going to need to do things that i want to do, otherwise, i fear that something worse will happen than just these mood swings...
P.S. kudos for scott lowman for visiting me at work yesterday. You rock...
Lately i feel as if i've been acting strange, almost rollercoaster like, and for once, I can not blame any of this on "womanly problems". I've been getting overly worked up over every little thing, and then not really caring about anything that happens to me. I hate it when i get this way because I'll generally lash out at people who didn't do anything wrong to me, and then ignore the people I should be lashing out at.
I feel that I'm turning into my own worst enemy...
My mother...
I feel that I DESPERATLY need to get away from my family for a good long while. Due to my random work scheduals and what not, I've been spending a lot more time at home, which is good in some ways (my mother isn't mad at me for never being home) but then it's really bad in some ways (my mom complains to me 24/7). Here are the things I've been feeling like I want to do lately, but not being able to:
-hanging with ballet friends (A LOT)
-going on a road trip/vacation of some sort
-working out
-spending days on end with andy
-doing completely nothing
-going shopping
-sleeping
-going to concerts
-cuddling
-being myself...
this may seem utterly selfish, but i don't care. at some point, i'm going to need to do things that i want to do, otherwise, i fear that something worse will happen than just these mood swings...
P.S. kudos for scott lowman for visiting me at work yesterday. You rock...