Oct 18, 2007 09:08
hi im going to post here more often i guess it will help me with some ishues internally ive been dealing with my uncle has about 8-9 monthes to live he has cancer and my mom is going through a nervous break down :( im not shure how to help her she was already crazzy to begin with ive been soo lonley lately i need some one to talk to my one confadant is my one continous nervous problem i cant even get messages on myspace with out freaking out my stomic jumps and i wate a long time to look at them. i hate bad news and i hate change i wish my life was like it was 2 mounths ago i would be the happyest person in the world <3 i need a break from my life and i dont kno how to go about that. i wish i wasn't such a screw up may be i would be happier if i went mute and never said a thing again maybe hes right about all of it i push ppl away the ppl that i love most . like him my mom my dad even anth i just wish i knew how to fix my fear of comitment its all ryans falt i some times wish i could find him and ..... i dont kno i gtg now ill post more later love you all byez <3