OMGwhat?
~.: So I finally finished watching Season Two of House last night. WTF kind of ending is that? I'm glad that Season Three has already started so that I don't have to be like the rest of the House fans were this summer: waiting and waiting to see what would happen next. And I watched the bloopers too- they were friggin' hilarious. It was funny to see that they had to bleep out Chase's actor. He got so into his part that he actually dropped an accidental F-bomb. It made me giggle.
~.: At any rate, it's finally the weekend. Much needed and much deserved. And this song by Casting Crowns is amazing. I love the chorus. I've had it stuck in my head all day. It's amazing what God has done in me these past few weeks. And I see how it's all coming together now for His glory.
~.: When I was moving my stuff into my original room I promised my dad that yes, I would still be a Christian by the time I graduated from MBC. But by the middle of the following week I wasn't shining the way I'd originally wanted to. I had become the whiteboard personality that someone had accused me of. I was ignoring God, putting off praying and reading my Bible, or even just thinking about God. I was hiding from it, hoping that I could still be a Christian and act the way I was acting, and feel the way I was feeling. Truth be told, for me, it was going to be impossible. And when everyone on my hall had that griping party and certain people found out about certain views I held of them, that was the most isolated I'd felt in a long while. It knocked me to my knees and I realized that from there, the only thing I could do was come to God. And I gave it to Him. I gave everything to Him: my fears, my tears, and my questions. And He took it and He said that it was going to be okay, that He would take care of everything. But still I questioned Him. Wondered why He would let me lose all the friends I'd just made. And even the ones that were still on my side drifted away when I got caught drinking. Which I could understand. And again I questioned. Why wouldn't they stay with me even after I'd screwed up? That wasn't fair, and God shouldn't have allowed it to happen.
~.: But I realized that it wasn't God's fault they were leaving me, but my own. Even though it was my fault, however, it was still part of God's plan for me. He allowed it to happen so that when I was feeling my lowest and my loneliest He could show me that He would always remain. Always. And when I had no one to cry to or turn to He comforted me. He reminded me that now that I was weak, I could be lifted up and strengthened in Him.
~.: I know I kinda changed topics in mid-sentence up there, but I felt inspired to share what God has done for me while being out here. And this song that I'm listening to just puts into words what I can't.
"I will love You, Lord, always
Not just for the things you've done for me.
And I will praise You all my days
Not just for the change You've made in me.
But I will praise You for You are holy, Lord.
And I'll lift my hands, but You are worthy of so much more.
For You are awesome, God of the nations, Light of Judah, Rock of the Ages,
Alpha, Omega, You're worthy of all praise!
More than these hands I'll raise!
I'll live a life of praise!
I will serve You, Lord, always
For You are my strength when I am weak.
And I will never be afraid
For You are my rock and You'll protect me.
But I will praise You for You are holy, Lord.
And I'll lift my hands, but You are worthy of so much more.
For You are awesome, God of the nations, Light of Judah, Rock of the Ages,
Alpha, Omega, You're worthy of all praise!
More than these hands I'll raise!
I'll live a life of praise!"
~.: At any rate, it's finally the weekend. Much needed and much deserved. And this song by Casting Crowns is amazing. I love the chorus. I've had it stuck in my head all day. It's amazing what God has done in me these past few weeks. And I see how it's all coming together now for His glory.
~.: When I was moving my stuff into my original room I promised my dad that yes, I would still be a Christian by the time I graduated from MBC. But by the middle of the following week I wasn't shining the way I'd originally wanted to. I had become the whiteboard personality that someone had accused me of. I was ignoring God, putting off praying and reading my Bible, or even just thinking about God. I was hiding from it, hoping that I could still be a Christian and act the way I was acting, and feel the way I was feeling. Truth be told, for me, it was going to be impossible. And when everyone on my hall had that griping party and certain people found out about certain views I held of them, that was the most isolated I'd felt in a long while. It knocked me to my knees and I realized that from there, the only thing I could do was come to God. And I gave it to Him. I gave everything to Him: my fears, my tears, and my questions. And He took it and He said that it was going to be okay, that He would take care of everything. But still I questioned Him. Wondered why He would let me lose all the friends I'd just made. And even the ones that were still on my side drifted away when I got caught drinking. Which I could understand. And again I questioned. Why wouldn't they stay with me even after I'd screwed up? That wasn't fair, and God shouldn't have allowed it to happen.
~.: But I realized that it wasn't God's fault they were leaving me, but my own. Even though it was my fault, however, it was still part of God's plan for me. He allowed it to happen so that when I was feeling my lowest and my loneliest He could show me that He would always remain. Always. And when I had no one to cry to or turn to He comforted me. He reminded me that now that I was weak, I could be lifted up and strengthened in Him.
~.: I know I kinda changed topics in mid-sentence up there, but I felt inspired to share what God has done for me while being out here. And this song that I'm listening to just puts into words what I can't.
"I will love You, Lord, always
Not just for the things you've done for me.
And I will praise You all my days
Not just for the change You've made in me.
But I will praise You for You are holy, Lord.
And I'll lift my hands, but You are worthy of so much more.
For You are awesome, God of the nations, Light of Judah, Rock of the Ages,
Alpha, Omega, You're worthy of all praise!
More than these hands I'll raise!
I'll live a life of praise!
I will serve You, Lord, always
For You are my strength when I am weak.
And I will never be afraid
For You are my rock and You'll protect me.
But I will praise You for You are holy, Lord.
And I'll lift my hands, but You are worthy of so much more.
For You are awesome, God of the nations, Light of Judah, Rock of the Ages,
Alpha, Omega, You're worthy of all praise!
More than these hands I'll raise!
I'll live a life of praise!"