Eek, emotional strain

[fushigi_na_chou]

~.: I joined a new LJ community last night and I'm wondering if it was a mistake. It's called todayirealized and it's full of interesting things, but mostly just sad things. Like "i realized i fail at life" or "im not beautiful" or "he/she doesnt love me back." And me, being me, is having to comment on every single one of them to encourage these

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[fushigi_na_chou]

I guess so. o.o I guess this is what God is calling me to do. I've apparently given hope to so many people, made so many people change their lives for the better, and I have a really hard time wrapping my head around the fact that it was because I exist in this world. Me. One person. Not even out of college. It just doesn't seem .... right. Like, there are so many other people out there more qualified to fill this position.

Listen to me. Now I sound like Moses. "B-b-b-b-b-but, Lord! I-I-I-I have a st-st-st-stutter! How c-c-can I lead Your p-p-p-p-people out of Egypt??" Except, from me it's more like, "But, God! I'm still just a kid! How can you expect me to love so many people so intimately and deeply and then carry them to You on my knees if I have to!" And then the response I get is, "Well, I did it." So then I know it's really not as insane as it sounds. I'm not being asked to save the world; just love a few people unconditionally. And I know I can do it, because He wouldn't tell me to do anything He hasn't already equipped me for. :D