What Can I Do
Title : What Can I Do
Author: fuschiapinks
Pairings : Kangin/Leeteuk, Kangin/Sungmin, Kyuhyun/Sungmin
Length: one shot
Rating: PG-13
Summary :
Heartbroken never be easy, especially for Kangin.
There’s nothing else he can do aside reminiscence everything over again.
ONE SHOT
This isn’t going anywhere.
I am sorry to break it off, but we know this isn’t right anymore.
I try to hold it back, but it’s already over.
I am sorry.
Kangin smashed the paper in his hand, didn’t want to read it for a second time. Once is enough for him. He grabbed the car key’s from the side table and rushed to his car. Driving insanely, passed several traffic lights, and then stopped in front of a small music store.
Exhaustedly, Kangin hurriedly enter the store with a redden face. There he finds the guy he’s looking for, seating behind the piano bar right in the corner, playing a sentimental melody.
“What is this, Min?” Kangin thrown the paper that he smashed before, in front of the guy.
Sungmin, the guy, distracted himself from the piano and carefully reach out the paper.
“I think I made it clear there, hyung.”
“What is clear there? What? That you suddenly fell out of love? That all of a sudden what we have isn’t matter to you? What, Min? What?!” Kangin shouted angrily.
“This is why I decide to put in a letter, hyung. I know you will be like this,”
“Well, what do you expect? I will silently agree on this without even questioning it? Have you out of your mind?”
“Hyung,” Sungmin approached Kangin, reach out for his hand and uniting their fingers together. “I know it seems so sudden for you, but believe me, this is the best thing for both of us.”
“Stop saying like I’m the faulty one here, which apparently I’m not,” Kangin gushed, trying to apart their hands, but Sungmin hold it even tighter.
“Please,” Sungmin plead. “Please look in your heart. This isn’t what we want when we start it, take a listen of your heart for this time.”
“Oh, stop it Min!” Kangin let go of their grip roughly. “What I know is, I love you. That’s what my heart said. I don’t know what’s inside yours, but definitely it’s not the same with mine.”
“Hyung,” Sungmin trying to hold Kangin’s arm.
“Don’t,” Kangin stepped back, “just don’t,” he gaze Sungmin with a hurtful expression.
Sungmin can only stand in his stance.
“Is it what you really want?” Kangin assured.
Sungmin nodded in slowly.
“If this is what you really want, what you really really want,” Kangin stressed out his last sentence and stopped to look at Sungmin’s expression. Having receives no significant reaction from the latter man, Kangin give up, “then this is it. I hope you are happy.”
With that last sentence, Kangin turn himself. Walking feebly to the door. Leaving behind the man that he love.
“What am I supposed to do? You don’t like this or that and you keep blaming me when it’s not my fault. Then what am I suppose to do? What am I suppose to do?”
***
Weeks after the occasion, things still going the same way on Kangin.
He has his own routine like he used to. Going out to the office on 8 am after an hour work out near his apartment and dropping by at nearest coffee stall for a quick breakfast. By lunch time, he will head out to the cafe near his office, ordering the same stew along with milk tea and a chocolate pudding side dish. After office ends at 7 pm, he will head to the South with fellow co-workers for some soju and noodle. Then by 10 pm, he’s in the apartment already. 2 hours watching the late night news until it brought him to sleep. He will wake up at 6.30 am and the same routine will be repeated.
It looks normal to everybody.
6.30 am when he gets up. He will dial the same number he remember perfectly only to say good morning.
The number you’ve reached is not available. Please check the number you’ve dial.
7.00 am when the time for him to work out, he will jog at the park 10 minutes from his apartment, which place he usually met with someone and just sit in the bench looking at the lake, talking nonsense.
You see the swan there, hyung? it will be great if I can have those kind of fuzz. Don’t you think its look great on me?
8.00 am when he off to work, he will casually making a way pass the music store, to have a glimpse of once was he’s special someone.
Thank you for dropping me by, today. Hopefully today will be a good day for us. Fighting!
8.15 am when it almost near the office, he will be stopping by at the nearest coffee stall from the music store to grab some quick breakfast.
You need to disseminate yourself to have breakfast, hyung. It’s good for your body. There’s a coffee stall near my store, they have this really nice sandwich. Please go get them before you go to work, okay?
12.00 am during lunch time, he will order beef stew. The food that he accustomed to, thanks to one person that always order it for him.
You have a build body, hyung. You need just the right food to maintain it. Oh, and the right beverage and dessert. Here, eat this.
7.00 pm when office’s finish, he will passing the music store again in a way to heading out to the South with fellow co-workers.
Sorry I’m late. There’s customer asking for repertoire that she didn’t know. I ended up playing at the piano almost every melody I can remember, so she can recognize which one she wants.
10.00 pm when he arrives back at the apartment, he will check his personal mail while watching the late news. After sorting out and replying some mail, he will end up e-mailing one particular person.
How are you today? Is it crowded at your store? You need to take care yourself, okay.
That’s just how routine Kangin’s life has become.
“What am I supposed to do? I gave you everything that I had and laid it down before you. The only thing I have left is you”
***
“This isn’t right, Kangin. I want the logo to represent our company, not the other way around,”
“I’m sorry, Sir. I’ll change it right away,” Kangin bow and take back his work, ready to leave the room when the said man called him again.
“What happen with you? You seem absent-minded lately. This kind of work usually only takes you two days maximum to finish. It’s almost a week and it hasn’t finished yet.”
“I’m sorry,” Kangin can only repeat his answer.
“Oh well, go and fix it. You better have it right then.”
“Alright, Sir,” Kangin leave his director’s room with a sigh relief.
The next hours, he spends it in front of his computer, trying to figure out what kind of logo best represent the company.
Why didn’t you make your own agency? You surely can make it big
I didn’t want to take a risk. The money involve will be too much
It will worth with the results, hyung.
Kangin bite his pen, scratched the back of his head, legs shaking under the table, trying hard finding the right proportion for his design.
“I think you should put the green one on top of it. Then cover it out with that bird,”
“Huh?” Kangin solicit another time, still in a position of finding the inspiration.
“There’s, the logo,” the said man repeated his sentence in a now more details, fingers pointed at the computer screen.
“Oh, yeah. That’s a good idea,” upon fully comprehend what has happen, he asks the said man, “sorry, who are you? I mean, I’ve never see you here,”
“Oh, I’m Kyuhyu’n. This is my third week here, I’m actually in the promotion area. But, I like designing as well,”
“Oh, I’m Kangin,”
“I know you, of course. You’re one of the most talented here. I like your works on the charity poster, that sort of give a vibe of giving as well as entertaining,”
Kangin, being embarrassed by the praise, trying to change the subject, “you’ve been here quite a while then, still I haven’t see you at the after hour office time. You know, getting soju and stuffs.”
“Well, I can’t join, it’s too bad. I have something to do after working,”
“Ooh..., well hopes you can catch up later on.”
Kyuhyun left with a slight promise to joining some other time. Kangin then look at the clock on the wall, it’s almost 7pm. He starts to clean up his desk and ready to join his fellow friends for another night consisted of soju and noodle.
Just like his usual routine, he takes the pathway that passing the musical store. He slowed his car since he remembers it perfectly, by Friday the music store closed at 8.
Kangin stunned at the view that he see upon passing the store. The small guy that he used to hold is being hold by another man. It’s not more than 5 minutes, but such a view lasted longer in Kangin’s mind.
“Saying that I’m your man. I trusted you but why. You say it’s for my own good.”
***
The view from last time still haunted Kangin’s weeks after. As a result, once again, another works left undone. The director’s call him, a little scold this time, and he’s in a position of repeating the things he get used lately, revise his works over and over again.
“Another revision?”
Kangin can only nod to the voice beside him. He’s getting use at Kyuhyun dropping by at his cubicle several times a day. It kinds of helping him, though. He has idea that somewhat not a thing that Kangin ever thought of.
“I saw you joining us last night, but gotten no chance to approach you. You’re in the red stall, right?”
“Oh yes. I’m kind of free last night. So, I catch up there. I was looking for you actually.”
“What are you routinely doing after office hours actually?” Kangin asked in curiosity.
“Just some stuffs,” Kyuhyun simply answering while playing with the Photoshop, putting one color to another.
Kangin role his eyes onto the answer, but didn’t bother to probe. They’re then drowning themselves to the discussion of the works, much until hours later.
“You will go to the south today?”
“Uhhm yeah. Another night with soju. Why?”
They’re both standing in front of the office gate, queuing to take turns in placing their index finger on the attendance machine. Kangin still busy with putting on scarf around his neck.
“Is there’s a possibility you can pass by at the Itaewon area?”
They will open a new store at Itaewon, hyung. I will be in charge there. I’m so nervous. Do you think I can take up this challenge? You will need to come there as often as you can, it’s near your office after all.
“Well, yeah. You want me to take you there?”
“Yeah, if that’s okay with you. My car’s broken and it still stuck at the workshop.”
“Okay then. Let’s wait some people from the program department first. We can leave after that.”
Kyuhyun just nod as he follows Kangin to the parking lot, waiting for the other at the car.
“What are you doing at Itaewon this late? You’re not going to shop there, are you? It’s a bit pricey there,” Kangin ask when they’re in the car and heading to the place Kyuhyun ask to be.
“Looking for some chicks,” there’s shout from the backseat. The people from the program department were happily teasing Kyuhyun the whole way since they leave from the office.
“Picking up my boyfriend,” Kyuhyun answer coldly.
...and that is as cold as Kangin’s feel when he saw Kyuhyun stop in front of the music store, kissing the small guy that once, ... still, he’s everything.
“Please don’t say don’t say. So tell me why you’re doing this to me. Baby I can’t do anything. You left me alone like this like a dummy, why did you leave?”
***
Leeteuk caressing the hair lovingly, “so you kiss him today?”
“Yup,” Kyuhyun answered, still focusing his attention to the video game in front of him.
“Did he saw you?”
“Yes,”
“Are you sure?”
Kyuhyun pause the game and turn his gaze to Leeteuk, “100 percent, absolutely, satisfaction guaranteed,” he said mockingly.
Leeteuk laughed while heading to the kitchen area, “just making sure. For a celebration, what do you want? Chocolate pudding or ice sherbet?” Leeteuk shout from behind the kitchen bar.
“Anything will do,” Kyuhyun following Leeteuk to the kitchen, grabbing an apple and start biting it. “So, when will be your turn?”
“It depends,” Leeteuk hang the question, hand over the pudding to Kyuhyun direction then busying himself cleaning the table.
“What do you mean?” Kyuhyun asked questionably.
“Do you like Sungmin already?”
“I cannot say I hate him,”
“I need to makes sure you both have a stable relationship first. By that I mean, he cannot live without you,” Leeteuk stressed out at the last sentence.
“Well, he literally called me almost every hour and text me every minutes, if you can call that can’t live without me,”
“Then, my turn has come then,”
“You have plan already?”
“I arrange you and Sungmin, remember?” Leeteuk smile contentedly.
“You really are something, hyung” Kyuhyun can only smirk at Leeteuk while finishing his last bite of pudding.
Author’s Note:
I AM SO BLAAAAAMING SEUNGRI FOR THIS FICT!!!
After I watch What Can I Do MV, I can’t stop myself humming the song, so I end up making this fict. I’m practically doing nothing, none my works, paper or finish my fict series, other than finishing this fict
And yessss… for those that might ask, I’m surely will make sequel for this… KangTeuk supposed to be happily ever after right? … well, in my mind, YES!