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[further_from_u]

ah
forget the bull shit
im cool
petty drama
it wasnt ment for hurting laura
i love her
and she has reminded me why we have been friends for so long
she cares
unlike other people i have waisted my time with
shes so awesome
she makes me smile

we were talking about life last night...
well this morning
ahh
it was fun
we were honest with eachother
completely
i miss her
i miss him
i miss all the great people in my life

ive been thinking about him a lot lately
a lot a lot
like sadly obsessive
i miss us
i love him
a lot
i just never admitted it to my self
because i had my self beliving that he deserved much more
but i am a better person then i once was
i have changed so much lately
is it bad to say i want him back
and i want him to be mine again
makes me sad to think of all the other people that have come before me
but thats life
and he wants to work on things
and have us get closer like we used to maybe
i miss him so much
i miss everything
even the little things that got on my nerves
i miss his touch
his voice
his soft skin
gentle eyes
and i feel like a fucking stalker
i call him a lot
he never answers
hes busy
but all iwant is to see him
he has his own life kelsey
you cant expect him to drop everything for you
but oh god do i wish that
i miss you
i want you
i love you
miss me
want me
love me

again
please