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[further_from_u]

i wish i was as important as him
he even gets a phone call after every fight
i dont get a damn thing
now how am i supposed to know you care
yah i did do it
i took away almost everything
i didnt want you looking at me and smiling
you now have more room for the one you truly "care" about
i was merely just a phase
you dont want me
you say you do but you dont
because im pretty fuckin sure that if i ment a god damn thing to you
you wouldnt hurt me like you do
you said you dont know how you treat me bad
HELLO
do you not see these tears of blood
these tears of anger
i am nothing to you
you walk all over me
i hate your phone calls to tell me "hes stayin the night tonight"
"im with my baby"
GOD
im at your house
your on the phone
how many times do you truly try to kill me
I love you... I love you... I love you...
now hes at your house
your not on the phone
you can waiste my time fixing things with him
but his time is more precious then to try fixing things with me
i never put anyone else before you
and you seem to put everyone else before me
you know how many people tell me to give up on you
how many people dont want us to be friends
how many people tell me your not worth it
and yet i have always been there
I dont give a shit about what other people fuckin think
they all can kiss my ass
but now
im SICK of you hurting me
im sick of you picking to be with him over me
oh fucking well
not my problem anymore
does any of this effect you
do you even care
is he your everything
im DYING to know because i want to know where my place used to be

i live to love you
but
im tired of living