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4/25 7:52pm
a moment in time i will never forget
to be honest i wasnt going to write about this
it upset me but i need to get it off my mind
monday evening tosha and i were at my house
got a call from a friend
he needed a favor
of course i didnt think anthing of it
we jumped in the car and headed over there
driving down alma school just passing warner
a lady driving an old van was turning left
i thought "doesnt she see me"
BAM
the sound of me slaming on my breaks
metal hitting and scraping eachother
smoke everywhere
didt realise what happened
i saw something come from my car.. somethin liquid
i told tosha to get the fuck out of the car
i didnt know what else to do
my car door was smashed
therefore i couldnt get out
i had to go through the window
which now would be kinda funny to see me attempt that... but besides the point...
tosha said "but i dont have any shoes on!"
" I DONT GIVE A FUCK GET THE FUCK OUT OF THE CAR!!!!"
we ran
it didnt hit us what had happenend at first
a lady who was behind me and saw the whole accident was waiting there and embrased us
we needed that hug
that lady was there for us
when im pretty sure we had felt the most alone ever
i couldnt quit understand what had just happened
then i looked over at my car
i almost fell over
i couldnt believe that had happened
i didnt understand why she didnt stop
why she didnt even break
why she didnt ask if we were ok
why she was driving like that with her three year old daughter in the car
my mind was spinning in circles
all i knew to do was apologise
even though it was her fault
i felt guilty
i held on to tosha
i didnt want to let go
i wanted to be comforted
the police came
wrote her a ticket
had 2 witnesses on my side
she had none
i should have gone to the hospital
but i didnt
my parents made me go to the chiropractor
i rather scratch my own eyes out then go back there
the past 9 months i have spent at the chiropractor was for nothing
i have to start all over
its a waste of time
to me
not worth it
at all
im sick of people asking me whats wrong with my car
or whats going on with my insurance
yah GREAT im fine thanks for asking
no one talks to me
im no fun to hang out with if i dont have a car i guess
i just want a phone call
or someone to stop by
too much to ask i guess
he came by the night of the accident
made me feel atease
but
things wont ever be the same
havent even talked to him since
no calls nothing
im done with this so called life
i wish to no longer be here in this house
surrounded by these people
i wish to no longer be in pain
i wish this never happened
i wish i had my car back
i wish my cell phone worked
i cant waite till my body is back to normal
one day ill take too many pain killers...
a moment in time i will never forget
to be honest i wasnt going to write about this
it upset me but i need to get it off my mind
monday evening tosha and i were at my house
got a call from a friend
he needed a favor
of course i didnt think anthing of it
we jumped in the car and headed over there
driving down alma school just passing warner
a lady driving an old van was turning left
i thought "doesnt she see me"
BAM
the sound of me slaming on my breaks
metal hitting and scraping eachother
smoke everywhere
didt realise what happened
i saw something come from my car.. somethin liquid
i told tosha to get the fuck out of the car
i didnt know what else to do
my car door was smashed
therefore i couldnt get out
i had to go through the window
which now would be kinda funny to see me attempt that... but besides the point...
tosha said "but i dont have any shoes on!"
" I DONT GIVE A FUCK GET THE FUCK OUT OF THE CAR!!!!"
we ran
it didnt hit us what had happenend at first
a lady who was behind me and saw the whole accident was waiting there and embrased us
we needed that hug
that lady was there for us
when im pretty sure we had felt the most alone ever
i couldnt quit understand what had just happened
then i looked over at my car
i almost fell over
i couldnt believe that had happened
i didnt understand why she didnt stop
why she didnt even break
why she didnt ask if we were ok
why she was driving like that with her three year old daughter in the car
my mind was spinning in circles
all i knew to do was apologise
even though it was her fault
i felt guilty
i held on to tosha
i didnt want to let go
i wanted to be comforted
the police came
wrote her a ticket
had 2 witnesses on my side
she had none
i should have gone to the hospital
but i didnt
my parents made me go to the chiropractor
i rather scratch my own eyes out then go back there
the past 9 months i have spent at the chiropractor was for nothing
i have to start all over
its a waste of time
to me
not worth it
at all
im sick of people asking me whats wrong with my car
or whats going on with my insurance
yah GREAT im fine thanks for asking
no one talks to me
im no fun to hang out with if i dont have a car i guess
i just want a phone call
or someone to stop by
too much to ask i guess
he came by the night of the accident
made me feel atease
but
things wont ever be the same
havent even talked to him since
no calls nothing
im done with this so called life
i wish to no longer be here in this house
surrounded by these people
i wish to no longer be in pain
i wish this never happened
i wish i had my car back
i wish my cell phone worked
i cant waite till my body is back to normal
one day ill take too many pain killers...