updates
I realize my posting rate has been sporatic lately. But a lot of things have been going on.
I kept this private for a bit because I didn't want a bunch of shit spawning from it. Pelt and I mutually and peacefully decided our relationship. In the way it was, just wasn't working out and we have separated. Mainly I'm just not ready to love someone again yet on that level that he deserves. He is such a wonderful person and I wish I could give him the world. For now though we are supporting each other through this and seem to be having a pretty healthy roommate situation. I need to take some time for me though. To be strong for myself and not need anyone to make me feel happy but me. I'm so close I can taste it at times.
I'm not looking to date anyone really anytime soon. I need time to grow and get over some stuff.
As for pelt, he seems like he is enjoying it here in Vegas. Although I'm sorry it didn't turn out exactly the way we though, I know we will continue to share memories and experiences with each other in whatever way we can. If you see pelt around, give him a hug. He's a sweet wolf and I love him to death.
I also want to state this is no ones fault. No one was lead on, no one was lied to. It's just how it is. Things in the past year of my life have changed a ton. I'm not the same fox I was than and I know I'm going to continue to change in the future. But growing is a process that takes a life time so I'm just going one day at a time.
As far as other things. I got a new job at MGM/Mirage (the largest casino empire in the world) working...doing the same thing pelt is. Internal IT Help Desk. Pays pretty well and the work is challenging. But I also have an interview tomorrow at a company I've been trying to get into for a while now. Easter Seals. They help children with disabilities (blind, deaf, etc) use computers and provide assistive technology. They happen to have an opening for IT position within the building. So I'm looking very forward to my interview and possibly doing something I'll be passionate about.
I guess that's all for now. I miss you guys.
I kept this private for a bit because I didn't want a bunch of shit spawning from it. Pelt and I mutually and peacefully decided our relationship. In the way it was, just wasn't working out and we have separated. Mainly I'm just not ready to love someone again yet on that level that he deserves. He is such a wonderful person and I wish I could give him the world. For now though we are supporting each other through this and seem to be having a pretty healthy roommate situation. I need to take some time for me though. To be strong for myself and not need anyone to make me feel happy but me. I'm so close I can taste it at times.
I'm not looking to date anyone really anytime soon. I need time to grow and get over some stuff.
As for pelt, he seems like he is enjoying it here in Vegas. Although I'm sorry it didn't turn out exactly the way we though, I know we will continue to share memories and experiences with each other in whatever way we can. If you see pelt around, give him a hug. He's a sweet wolf and I love him to death.
I also want to state this is no ones fault. No one was lead on, no one was lied to. It's just how it is. Things in the past year of my life have changed a ton. I'm not the same fox I was than and I know I'm going to continue to change in the future. But growing is a process that takes a life time so I'm just going one day at a time.
As far as other things. I got a new job at MGM/Mirage (the largest casino empire in the world) working...doing the same thing pelt is. Internal IT Help Desk. Pays pretty well and the work is challenging. But I also have an interview tomorrow at a company I've been trying to get into for a while now. Easter Seals. They help children with disabilities (blind, deaf, etc) use computers and provide assistive technology. They happen to have an opening for IT position within the building. So I'm looking very forward to my interview and possibly doing something I'll be passionate about.
I guess that's all for now. I miss you guys.