control
There are some things on this earth we can't control. And no matter how bad we wish we could, we can't. Sometimes it hurts so badly, we make crazy decisions. Do things that hurt us even more in the long run. I guess you have to learn the hard way yourself sometimes.
Leaving for Vegas soon. Seems too soon, too real now. I'm not sure if its the right thing to do, but its all I can do right now. My life isn't the same as it was, I hope this move fixes that things I'm lacking right now. Theres a piece of me missing presently though. I'm not sure if it will ever grow back.
I know this is cryptic, but if you know me well enough, you'll at least understand. Sorry for the drama. But I need this place as an outlet sometimes.
I got a lot of changing to do on myself, I can't let things in others lives concern me, or hurt me. I need to focus on me and pelt, because right now, I think hes the only one that I can trust to not hurt me and to care for me unconditionally.
I just wish right now certain feelings wern't so strong, ones that keep me from being as close to him as I can be. But those feelings are really all I have left at times, and all that brings me comfort.
*curls up and falls asleep*
Leaving for Vegas soon. Seems too soon, too real now. I'm not sure if its the right thing to do, but its all I can do right now. My life isn't the same as it was, I hope this move fixes that things I'm lacking right now. Theres a piece of me missing presently though. I'm not sure if it will ever grow back.
I know this is cryptic, but if you know me well enough, you'll at least understand. Sorry for the drama. But I need this place as an outlet sometimes.
I got a lot of changing to do on myself, I can't let things in others lives concern me, or hurt me. I need to focus on me and pelt, because right now, I think hes the only one that I can trust to not hurt me and to care for me unconditionally.
I just wish right now certain feelings wern't so strong, ones that keep me from being as close to him as I can be. But those feelings are really all I have left at times, and all that brings me comfort.
*curls up and falls asleep*