need new music wah
There is something to be said about sitting at a proper desk in a proper chair with proper lighting and proper space to properly lay out your notebooks and bullshittery. What needs to be said is that it is amazing and hundreds of times better than shifting around on a couch with a laptop burning the skin off my thighs.
That being said, I concluded recently, as much as it sucks, that Colleen has done pretty much all she can for me. In fact, I think the benefits are reversed. She seems to enjoy seeing me, and likes to tell me stories about her life and the crazy things that happen to her. It's always interesting and we do talk about me and my problems as well, of course, but I still feel like I've gained all I can from her as a therapist. Now, she's just a friend. She's telling me things I already know. Even doing an EMDR run, well, it helped remind me of a few things I wanted to talk to her about, but I really don't think that shit works on me. I tell her every time, I can't help it.
Well, I don't know if it works on me or not, and I don't really care. None of it really matters anyway. I will miss Colleen a lot, but obviously I'm reaching the end of my therapy for the time being; I won't be able to afford it once we move.
Aside from that, I've been working on staying healthy, writing (Quotidian Magick, ADKC, and a oneshot that came out of nowhere and is now giving me some grief)...
Stasha and I chilled the other day and we watched some kpop shit. Mostly B.A.P stuff. They're pretty cute, I like their Warrior song. Zelo is just... IDK, I get this European feel off of him. Himchan reminds me of Jinwoon, Jonghoon, and a billion other people all put together. Yongguk has a sexy voice. As for the rest, they haven't stood out to me much yet. xD
Today, or yesterday I guess, was the summer solstice. I didn't do much, but I cleansed the house and my tools (stones, shells, pentacle, etc). I'm not really into rituals for gods or goddesses, or giving my soul over to the Lord and Lady. Not sure if that's my cup of tea. But worldwide, it's acknowledged as a day great for divining and cleansing. It's also a day to appreciate that the year has gone from waxing to waning. SIX MONTHS LEFT TIL THE END OF THE WORLD.
I was reading all about different kinds of divination today and went off on some rabbit trails. One of the things I found was "MERKABAH". IDFK, it sounds scientific and new age at the same time. I just like the idea of having a spiritual vehicle to transport one's soul from the earthly realm to the "heavenly" realm.
Likewise, today is a good day to appreciate the balance of life, the yin and yang of things. That's what the solstice taught me, I guess.
So, Jes and I have a brand new kitten (she's two months) named Vivi. She's an adorable mush, but also the clumsy type. She's just too fucking CUTE. /dies So now we have four cats and a chihuahua. OMG, I never thought this would be my life. That's the only thought I have on that matter. xD It's not a bad one, though.
I've caught up with the Eureka 7 AO sequel (episode 9?)... what the fuck is going on. Some dude with yellow eyes can fly and do magic, steals Ao's girlfriend (she's fickle, damn)... and these Secret/G-Monster things... why do they look, like... mechanical?
SO FAR, DISLIKE. BETTER MAKE THIS PLAUSIBLE, BONES.
Hmmm... this week I need to take my mom out to lunch and lay down my future plans and how she's involved... and I want to go to the barn at some point. I also need to look for a temporary job. I'm close to exhausting my chances and resources. ~o~ Oh and I need an oil change for my car, fuck.
As for this weekend, in the Keys there's some sort of Midsummer's Night Dream fete going on and if Kim is down, I'd like to drive down on Saturday, have a ton of fun, maybe get a cheap hotel room, and then drive back on Sunday day. >o<;; I really want to GO TO THIS THING. IT'S ONLY $11!
~ Ciao.
That being said, I concluded recently, as much as it sucks, that Colleen has done pretty much all she can for me. In fact, I think the benefits are reversed. She seems to enjoy seeing me, and likes to tell me stories about her life and the crazy things that happen to her. It's always interesting and we do talk about me and my problems as well, of course, but I still feel like I've gained all I can from her as a therapist. Now, she's just a friend. She's telling me things I already know. Even doing an EMDR run, well, it helped remind me of a few things I wanted to talk to her about, but I really don't think that shit works on me. I tell her every time, I can't help it.
Well, I don't know if it works on me or not, and I don't really care. None of it really matters anyway. I will miss Colleen a lot, but obviously I'm reaching the end of my therapy for the time being; I won't be able to afford it once we move.
Aside from that, I've been working on staying healthy, writing (Quotidian Magick, ADKC, and a oneshot that came out of nowhere and is now giving me some grief)...
Stasha and I chilled the other day and we watched some kpop shit. Mostly B.A.P stuff. They're pretty cute, I like their Warrior song. Zelo is just... IDK, I get this European feel off of him. Himchan reminds me of Jinwoon, Jonghoon, and a billion other people all put together. Yongguk has a sexy voice. As for the rest, they haven't stood out to me much yet. xD
Today, or yesterday I guess, was the summer solstice. I didn't do much, but I cleansed the house and my tools (stones, shells, pentacle, etc). I'm not really into rituals for gods or goddesses, or giving my soul over to the Lord and Lady. Not sure if that's my cup of tea. But worldwide, it's acknowledged as a day great for divining and cleansing. It's also a day to appreciate that the year has gone from waxing to waning. SIX MONTHS LEFT TIL THE END OF THE WORLD.
I was reading all about different kinds of divination today and went off on some rabbit trails. One of the things I found was "MERKABAH". IDFK, it sounds scientific and new age at the same time. I just like the idea of having a spiritual vehicle to transport one's soul from the earthly realm to the "heavenly" realm.
Likewise, today is a good day to appreciate the balance of life, the yin and yang of things. That's what the solstice taught me, I guess.
So, Jes and I have a brand new kitten (she's two months) named Vivi. She's an adorable mush, but also the clumsy type. She's just too fucking CUTE. /dies So now we have four cats and a chihuahua. OMG, I never thought this would be my life. That's the only thought I have on that matter. xD It's not a bad one, though.
I've caught up with the Eureka 7 AO sequel (episode 9?)... what the fuck is going on. Some dude with yellow eyes can fly and do magic, steals Ao's girlfriend (she's fickle, damn)... and these Secret/G-Monster things... why do they look, like... mechanical?
SO FAR, DISLIKE. BETTER MAKE THIS PLAUSIBLE, BONES.
Hmmm... this week I need to take my mom out to lunch and lay down my future plans and how she's involved... and I want to go to the barn at some point. I also need to look for a temporary job. I'm close to exhausting my chances and resources. ~o~ Oh and I need an oil change for my car, fuck.
As for this weekend, in the Keys there's some sort of Midsummer's Night Dream fete going on and if Kim is down, I'd like to drive down on Saturday, have a ton of fun, maybe get a cheap hotel room, and then drive back on Sunday day. >o<;; I really want to GO TO THIS THING. IT'S ONLY $11!
~ Ciao.