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This is supposed to be a place to vent, right?
Then why the fuck can I not write a thing that's going through my head right now?
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I know I fear too much; I get that. I always have. But, sometimes, I need to learn to let go. My heart feels like it is in knots - let's not talk about my stomach and my ability to breathe. I had my very first honest-to-god panic attack this week because of it.
Why do I feel like I'm going to lose her? She is not mine to lose.
I swear to god I just want to see her happy. That's it.
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I also have a thing for someone who probably either (a) has no clue, (b) doesn't know I exist, or (c) both.
School needs to begin so I'll stop thinking so much.
Then why the fuck can I not write a thing that's going through my head right now?
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I know I fear too much; I get that. I always have. But, sometimes, I need to learn to let go. My heart feels like it is in knots - let's not talk about my stomach and my ability to breathe. I had my very first honest-to-god panic attack this week because of it.
Why do I feel like I'm going to lose her? She is not mine to lose.
I swear to god I just want to see her happy. That's it.
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I also have a thing for someone who probably either (a) has no clue, (b) doesn't know I exist, or (c) both.
School needs to begin so I'll stop thinking so much.