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This year, however, I managed to get a dorm room. It's kinda close to my school, but I get a free unlimited monthly Metro card to go to school with, so it works out. Living in a dorm is hard and cramped, but I shouldn't be surprised huh? Plus, I'm not on a meal plan, so every few days, I make a trip to the grocery store to buy food. I can't really cook, so I'm at a terrible disadvantage. I can cook eggs, some veggies, and that's about it. I don't know how to buy meat, so I'm just gonna buy already cooked ones. It's easier anyway.
Classes are, no surprise, harder than last year. Some of the teachers really don't care about us students, so I feel kinda out of it. But I'll do my best, I took out my loan already, I might as well give it all I got. My friends are still around, and still are close to me. I've made friends with my RA on my floor of my building, and chatted with 3-4 girls on my floor. I still have yet to do my homework haha.
My family has been a little off lately. Apparently my father is refusing to eat his pills to help reduce his anxiety. The effects it has on him are 'uncomfortable' and when he doesn't take them, he feels 'like he's dying'. The doctor said he should take it, to improve his life, but my father said that he likes his life just the way it is. Unfortunately, he doesn't think about how his life affects my family and it's starting to take a big toll on my mom. Before I went back to school, he would snap at my mom for no good reason, have small episodes of anxiety attacks a week (and takes it out on my mom or sister), and has been making rather rash decisions. The one I'm very angry about is how my father refuses to co-sign my sister's loans when she does go to college. Not only that, he may not even give money for her first year of college, because her savings bond cannot be touched until she turns 19 or 20. She was pissed off, because he co-signed mine. I wanted to reason with him, but because of his unsteady nature, I'm putting it off until I go back for a weekend. *sighs*
As for me and Ryan, I'm withdrawing a little from the relationship. I'm not sure why. I've been standoff-ish lately. I slept over his dorm last week, because I didn't want to go to my dorm late at night. It felt kind of weird, despite the fact I've done it so many times before. Maybe it's because of school starting and hopes of seeing him this school year are slim to none, because of, well, school, and his commitment to his Christian group at his school (he's now a group leader and has a lot of responsiblities). I think my real problem is I can't grow up. I want to, but I guess it's coming a little too quickly for me. I guess I'm a little stubbron about this. I dont know.
LJ is where I just keep track of how my life is. It's not like anyone else reads this anyway.
Classes are, no surprise, harder than last year. Some of the teachers really don't care about us students, so I feel kinda out of it. But I'll do my best, I took out my loan already, I might as well give it all I got. My friends are still around, and still are close to me. I've made friends with my RA on my floor of my building, and chatted with 3-4 girls on my floor. I still have yet to do my homework haha.
My family has been a little off lately. Apparently my father is refusing to eat his pills to help reduce his anxiety. The effects it has on him are 'uncomfortable' and when he doesn't take them, he feels 'like he's dying'. The doctor said he should take it, to improve his life, but my father said that he likes his life just the way it is. Unfortunately, he doesn't think about how his life affects my family and it's starting to take a big toll on my mom. Before I went back to school, he would snap at my mom for no good reason, have small episodes of anxiety attacks a week (and takes it out on my mom or sister), and has been making rather rash decisions. The one I'm very angry about is how my father refuses to co-sign my sister's loans when she does go to college. Not only that, he may not even give money for her first year of college, because her savings bond cannot be touched until she turns 19 or 20. She was pissed off, because he co-signed mine. I wanted to reason with him, but because of his unsteady nature, I'm putting it off until I go back for a weekend. *sighs*
As for me and Ryan, I'm withdrawing a little from the relationship. I'm not sure why. I've been standoff-ish lately. I slept over his dorm last week, because I didn't want to go to my dorm late at night. It felt kind of weird, despite the fact I've done it so many times before. Maybe it's because of school starting and hopes of seeing him this school year are slim to none, because of, well, school, and his commitment to his Christian group at his school (he's now a group leader and has a lot of responsiblities). I think my real problem is I can't grow up. I want to, but I guess it's coming a little too quickly for me. I guess I'm a little stubbron about this. I dont know.
LJ is where I just keep track of how my life is. It's not like anyone else reads this anyway.