This is the only place I can post without worries.
I miss everything I use to have. I miss having friends I could call when things went wrong. I hate everything Ive become and the people Ive let walk all over me. I have no one to talk to, for goodness sakes I had to call my mom.I feel like I have lost everything, and i feel its all my fault. I need a hug, I need a late night run away with someone who cares. Fuck, I just need someone who cares. I hate that Im posting all this negative, but no one will read this anyways. I hate everything right now. I have never felt so alone in all my time. I don't think anyone my age should feel this way. Everyone everywhere should have at least one good friend they can call and talk to whenever they want. I honestly don't have that and it sucks so bad. Im so angry and destroyed right now I pace around b/c I can't think of anything I mean anything I could do just to feel somewhat better. I don't know anyone who is this lonely, but if I did, I'd be there for them. I just feel like screaming and punching a hole in the wall. Instead Im talking to myself, and crying. I can't stop crying, Im sure i will eventually. I know this all sounds crazy, but its all the truth. Sure I have friends, but they are the friends you just see when your hanging out with the same people. I have honestly not been invited to hang out with anyone since prob. sep. besides with roman. Really all I have to say is fuck.