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So today was pretty interesting as far as classes go. I didn't really learn anything new or exciting, but some of the topics stirred up a lot of thought in me, and gave me a somewhat new perspective on things. In my Psychology of Development class, we were discussing childbirth (always a fun topic), and we went into pretty graphic detail of the whole process, and the entire time all I could think was, how could anyone voluntarily put themselves in that kind of misery? Anyway, THEN we had to watch a video about it. It was utterly disgusting. We got to see every moment of the baby coming out, and the NOISES. Ahhhhh the noises. I was seriously almost sick. But then...the doctor handed the baby over to the mother, and the nausea turned into happiness. I went from feeling sick to wanting to cry in a matter of seconds, because the whole thing was just so beautiful. So as I was leaving the class, I started thinking to myself, I could never go through that kind of pain, and I kept thinking about how gross it all was. But then I thought about how beautiful it was when the mother and child saw each other for the first time, and it seemed to make it all worth it. However, it's not good to get too caught up in sentimental moments like that, because there's so much more to it. This train of thought led me to thinking about a lot of other things. I started thinking about marriage, and how people get caught up in all the romance, planning the wedding, and being in love forever! But being married is so much more than that. It's a commitment and a sacrifice, you have to give up some things about yourself and share things with this other person that you're (supposedly) going to spend the REST of your life with. That's a really long time. So I started thinking about this whole big picture, getting married and having kids, this American dream. And I mean, it sounds all pretty and nice at first, but deep down, there's a lot of work involved. And I realized, at this point in my life, I'm WAY too selfish to even begin to think about anything like that. I want to experience things for MYSELF and live my life, not give most of myself to a husband or a baby. So I guess the point of all this is, maybe sometimes I worry about being alone forever, but until I'm completely happy with who I am as a person, there's no way I'll be able to give of myself to others.
After all that (all this thinking took place in a matter of about 10 minutes in my walk from one class to the next), it was time for Social Psychology. Although my teacher is a complete weirdo, this is turning out to be one of my favorite classes. It's all about explaining why we act the way we do, and how society shapes our personalities. Today we talked about The Self, how we define ourselves, and what role society has in defining who we are. I didn't really have any kind of deep, epiphanic moments after this class, but the discussion kind of tied in to what I had been thinking about earlier. It just kind of made me realize how important it is to have a strong sense of self and know who you are in order to live a good life.
I'm hoping that I'll be able to make practical use out of all these thoughts, and not just let them float around in my head. I think as I keep learning about myself and who I am, I will become much happier and life will (hopefully) become easier.
After all that (all this thinking took place in a matter of about 10 minutes in my walk from one class to the next), it was time for Social Psychology. Although my teacher is a complete weirdo, this is turning out to be one of my favorite classes. It's all about explaining why we act the way we do, and how society shapes our personalities. Today we talked about The Self, how we define ourselves, and what role society has in defining who we are. I didn't really have any kind of deep, epiphanic moments after this class, but the discussion kind of tied in to what I had been thinking about earlier. It just kind of made me realize how important it is to have a strong sense of self and know who you are in order to live a good life.
I'm hoping that I'll be able to make practical use out of all these thoughts, and not just let them float around in my head. I think as I keep learning about myself and who I am, I will become much happier and life will (hopefully) become easier.