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So, I'm at my mom's house today....I have an undying feeling in my heart the Tina is/has been talking to that stupid mother fucker again today....I just don't know how much longer I can put up with these feelings...whether they're real or not. I hate always thinking that she's talking to him, but now she's online and I just really feel like she's talking to him right now. I haven't felt this in a long time, but damn now it's back and stronger than ever. She changed her yahoo password again, so I went and changed ALL my passwords. I say fuck it, she's gonna talk to him, I'm gonna talk to Ashley.
I watched The Notebook last night, and I'm not gonna lie, Ashley was my real first love....and I still think about her sometimes, but i know that we had our time, and it will never come again. I'm with Kristina now and times are good....sometimes. I hate the fighting, sometimes I just wish she would end it. I wish she'd just tell me it was over. I know it would be awful but i know it'll come eventually, and I'd just rather it come while I can handle it.
Shit's just gotten all fucked up in my head today, so maybe i'll just fuckin kill myself and put myself outta my misery...then everyone could be happy.
I watched The Notebook last night, and I'm not gonna lie, Ashley was my real first love....and I still think about her sometimes, but i know that we had our time, and it will never come again. I'm with Kristina now and times are good....sometimes. I hate the fighting, sometimes I just wish she would end it. I wish she'd just tell me it was over. I know it would be awful but i know it'll come eventually, and I'd just rather it come while I can handle it.
Shit's just gotten all fucked up in my head today, so maybe i'll just fuckin kill myself and put myself outta my misery...then everyone could be happy.