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Well, Kristina and I have finally moved into our new apartment. We've had soooo many fuckin people over since we moved in...honestly, it's ridiculous...Sarah, Vonda (Queen Zoot, LOL), Kendra, Burnie, Q..EVERY DAMN BODY! It feels good having our own place...no one is there to bug us. It's WONDERFUL!!! Mattie seems to love it soooo much.
I logged onto MySpace earlier....boringness there. Got a few more people in my friends list though...so that's good. Went looking around MySpace....saw that Ashley is now in Jack's friends list....at first, it pissed me the fuck off! But, now it's cool. I'm over it. I mean, Ashley is a good friend to have, she just wasn't relationship material for me, I guess. But, we did have some good times when we were friends.
It's been 2 weeks since I recieved the news about Kim, and I have to say that a lot of my outlook on life has changed. I now know not to take my friends for granted....because you never know how much longer they're going to be around. It's weird now....knowing that there isn't going to be any emails in my inbox from Kim...and that blows. She was a big piece of my happiness and now that she's gone, I really don't know what to do.
It's like I've been stuck by Kristina's side even more since losing Kim....in my eyes, Kristina is the only real friend I have left anymore. She's not just my girlfriend, but she's moved on to being my best friend. She knows more about me than anyone walking this Earth, and I don't know what I would do without her in my life anymore. She is definitely someone I could see myself being with for the rest of my life. She's brought so much happiness into my life, and she's been my rock throughout some of the most difficult things in my life. She's reassured me that everything is going to be okay with me, and I don't think I will ever be able to thank her enough for just being there, listening to me bitch and moan about problems that aren't even real problems.....things that would probably make a real problem facing individual laugh....but I'm so glad that I have her to turn to in those times...someone that's already dealt with these things, not just some 15 or 16 year old child that's never even had to face reality.
It seems like Kristina goes above and beyond the call of duty to ensure my happiness, and to let me know how much she really does love me. It's different being in such an adult relationship...where the person I'm with actually DOES love me, and shows me and tells me sooo much, that I actually believe them. We don't fight hardly at all. I mean, sure we have the little spats where I get mad and turn over in bed, but we don't even have REAL arguements....and that's such a WONDERFUL change from what I'm used to.
I changed my LJ icon to one that fits my description sooo much better. People do think I'm tough but it is only because I don't let anyone see me cry...if you've ever seen me cry, that means that I really trust(ed) or love(d) you.....I only cry in front of those people...and there's only a handful of people that have seen it...lol.
But, I'm off here so if you see me online, holla atcha gurl! LOL....holla back!
PS...if you see me in da street, remember...YOU DON'T KNOW ME! lol....just kidding...TI is pimp shit.
I logged onto MySpace earlier....boringness there. Got a few more people in my friends list though...so that's good. Went looking around MySpace....saw that Ashley is now in Jack's friends list....at first, it pissed me the fuck off! But, now it's cool. I'm over it. I mean, Ashley is a good friend to have, she just wasn't relationship material for me, I guess. But, we did have some good times when we were friends.
It's been 2 weeks since I recieved the news about Kim, and I have to say that a lot of my outlook on life has changed. I now know not to take my friends for granted....because you never know how much longer they're going to be around. It's weird now....knowing that there isn't going to be any emails in my inbox from Kim...and that blows. She was a big piece of my happiness and now that she's gone, I really don't know what to do.
It's like I've been stuck by Kristina's side even more since losing Kim....in my eyes, Kristina is the only real friend I have left anymore. She's not just my girlfriend, but she's moved on to being my best friend. She knows more about me than anyone walking this Earth, and I don't know what I would do without her in my life anymore. She is definitely someone I could see myself being with for the rest of my life. She's brought so much happiness into my life, and she's been my rock throughout some of the most difficult things in my life. She's reassured me that everything is going to be okay with me, and I don't think I will ever be able to thank her enough for just being there, listening to me bitch and moan about problems that aren't even real problems.....things that would probably make a real problem facing individual laugh....but I'm so glad that I have her to turn to in those times...someone that's already dealt with these things, not just some 15 or 16 year old child that's never even had to face reality.
It seems like Kristina goes above and beyond the call of duty to ensure my happiness, and to let me know how much she really does love me. It's different being in such an adult relationship...where the person I'm with actually DOES love me, and shows me and tells me sooo much, that I actually believe them. We don't fight hardly at all. I mean, sure we have the little spats where I get mad and turn over in bed, but we don't even have REAL arguements....and that's such a WONDERFUL change from what I'm used to.
I changed my LJ icon to one that fits my description sooo much better. People do think I'm tough but it is only because I don't let anyone see me cry...if you've ever seen me cry, that means that I really trust(ed) or love(d) you.....I only cry in front of those people...and there's only a handful of people that have seen it...lol.
But, I'm off here so if you see me online, holla atcha gurl! LOL....holla back!
PS...if you see me in da street, remember...YOU DON'T KNOW ME! lol....just kidding...TI is pimp shit.