"......darkness is the only thing left as the light fades away...."
for some reason i have a bad feeling that this weelend is going to suck. so the other night amanda jess and paul were waiting for me at my house when i got out of work. they made me spinach lisagne i can't spell i'm sorry. and a couple bottles of champaigne. i was excited it rocked fuckin harcore. so work is goin alright. it's boring. i ned to shave. i dunno why i have this feeling. i just have a feeling in my gut that this weekend is going to suck. i gota pay for jess' ticket tomarrow. that 120 bucks. then i gota pay everyone back. that another 100 bucks. i wanna go away for a while. i wanna ski so fuckin bad. GOD DAMNIT GET COLD AND SNOW ALREADY!!!!! i'm getting sick and it sucks. i want a tattoo, and my lebret peirced. the early november and underoath are playing in toronto. i won't be able to go. ugh. the early november are playing in rochester next month too. the day after the toronto show. i prolly won't be able to go to that either. jess needs to clean her room. cause i get yelled at every time i do it. i tiv have time for my friends anymore. i never do anything. all i do is work and sit around jess's house by myself while i wait for her to get from school. and then i sleep. my life is so boring and blah. kenny's leaving i'm gona go jam on the drums upstairs or something. c ya.