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your wondering is this really me? yes it is. ive gone thru things people have never even dreamed about. ive fucked myself up in more ways than imaginable. and this is mentally not psychially. i didnt need any drugs i didnt need to hurt myself, i just went from a sane emotioinal wreck to a insane emotionally unstable person. sometimes i feel like im standing still and i cant move while evrybody else is moving around me. its scary. i feel like i have no one. my dad is in bad shape. he has the most severe stage of emphazema. and his right chamber of his heart is broken i guess u can say. im not writing this for sympatgy im writing this to get out of my head. i know no one will read this and i dont care. but if u do im sorry for being fucked up im sory for not being there. im sorry