OK, after reading the first paragraph I thought this whole entry was going to be directed towards me! LOL And there are some very true statements you made in here, that I could totally learn from.
And I read your whole entry- and didn't fall asleep either! (:
Honey- if that's your dream, and you have to go to Toronto to do it- then do it. OR at least TRY and do it. You know that if you didn't like it there after awhile or missed home too much you could always go back home. That's what I always think about with California and AAU. BUT at least you know you TRIED instead of always wondering woulda, coulda shoulda's.
Don't say you know you wouldn't get in, why wouldn't you get in? That's just crazy to say!
Ah...the love part.
Where do I begin?? lol
Being in love with someone is a GREAT experience. BUT, it's HORRIBLE if you love someone who doesn't love you back. ::cough cough:: lol Sure, I can finally *yay!* laugh about it now because I've found an out-of-this-world guy who treats me right and puts me before himself...but (you knew there was a but ha) LOVE the SECOND time is harder. Well, for me at least.
I just can't allow myself to fall like I did the first time. And it goes hand in hand with the whole not being able to trust a really nice guy again- because the last one was a 'really nice guy' and dumped me literally on the side of the street and left me there. OUCH!
So, you can see my general fear of that happening again. Even though I know that Brian is A HELL OF A LOT better AND trustworthy- I let the fear take the wheel and stear. (to quote Incubus lol)
One day it will happen, but until then I just gotta keep living life.
Even though I know my last entry totally shocked some people because I'm willing to give up my dream to stay back here with him.
:sigh:
Anyways, and when it comes to when you wanna know where you stand with people (I'm taking it as you wanna know where you stand with Mr. You Know Who) Melanie, you just gotta ask him. It might hurt you, so be prepared for that, or it might not. BUT again- you just gotta do it. What would you rather have? A few more months of not knowing, and you investing more time and effort into it, or you knowing NOW and either still going along as you both were and being happy and possibly falling in love, OR knowing to move on? You owe yourself the answer...now ask him the question! (:
We should totally do lunch one of these days. That way you and I could talk more about everything. (:
But sadly, I have to end this before I look back up at the clock and say "OH SHIT I HAVE TO BE AT WORK IN 10 MINUTES!" lol
OK, after reading the first paragraph I thought this whole entry was going to be directed towards me! LOL And there are some very true statements you made in here, that I could totally learn from.
And I read your whole entry- and didn't fall asleep either! (:
Honey- if that's your dream, and you have to go to Toronto to do it- then do it. OR at least TRY and do it. You know that if you didn't like it there after awhile or missed home too much you could always go back home. That's what I always think about with California and AAU. BUT at least you know you TRIED instead of always wondering woulda, coulda shoulda's.
Don't say you know you wouldn't get in, why wouldn't you get in? That's just crazy to say!
Ah...the love part.
Where do I begin?? lol
Being in love with someone is a GREAT experience. BUT, it's HORRIBLE if you love someone who doesn't love you back. ::cough cough:: lol Sure, I can finally *yay!* laugh about it now because I've found an out-of-this-world guy who treats me right and puts me before himself...but (you knew there was a but ha) LOVE the SECOND time is harder. Well, for me at least.
I just can't allow myself to fall like I did the first time. And it goes hand in hand with the whole not being able to trust a really nice guy again- because the last one was a 'really nice guy' and dumped me literally on the side of the street and left me there. OUCH!
So, you can see my general fear of that happening again. Even though I know that Brian is A HELL OF A LOT better AND trustworthy- I let the fear take the wheel and stear. (to quote Incubus lol)
One day it will happen, but until then I just gotta keep living life.
Even though I know my last entry totally shocked some people because I'm willing to give up my dream to stay back here with him.
:sigh:
Anyways, and when it comes to when you wanna know where you stand with people (I'm taking it as you wanna know where you stand with Mr. You Know Who) Melanie, you just gotta ask him. It might hurt you, so be prepared for that, or it might not. BUT again- you just gotta do it. What would you rather have? A few more months of not knowing, and you investing more time and effort into it, or you knowing NOW and either still going along as you both were and being happy and possibly falling in love, OR knowing to move on? You owe yourself the answer...now ask him the question! (:
We should totally do lunch one of these days. That way you and I could talk more about everything. (:
But sadly, I have to end this before I look back up at the clock and say "OH SHIT I HAVE TO BE AT WORK IN 10 MINUTES!" lol
I will talk with you later!
♥ Liz
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