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I'm finally at a hotel that HAS a computer :) I can't even begin to explain to you how happy I am lol.
I miss everyone so much, I can't wait to be home. Only 3 more days of like, doing stuff here, then the 4th I'm flying back :) :) :) I'm wicked excited to go home, you don't even know. Well, Michelle probably does seeing as she was in my place like a week ago lol. I'm so fucking home sick :(
I don't know what's up with Ryan..things have been really weird lately. I don't think he gets me though, I've told him so many times that him bringing up Tessie upsets me but he does it any way, it's almost like he doesn't even care. He thinks it's dumb that I get upset but I think if he was in my place he would get upset too. But yeah, I was just on the phone with him and he was like "Hey I saw Tessie today, except she was with some guy or something"..yeah cause that's really what I wanted to hear. I don't want to hear ANYTHING about her..even if it's bad. It may be stupid, he might be right, but hearing absolutely anything about her gets me sad. It's never gonna stop either..it always makes me feel like I come second to her. But he still brings her up and doesn't listen when I say it upsets me, so I guess I'll have to get used to it..:-/ Ugh
When I get back we all need to hang out guys, I miss everyone like a mofo.
I miss everyone so much, I can't wait to be home. Only 3 more days of like, doing stuff here, then the 4th I'm flying back :) :) :) I'm wicked excited to go home, you don't even know. Well, Michelle probably does seeing as she was in my place like a week ago lol. I'm so fucking home sick :(
I don't know what's up with Ryan..things have been really weird lately. I don't think he gets me though, I've told him so many times that him bringing up Tessie upsets me but he does it any way, it's almost like he doesn't even care. He thinks it's dumb that I get upset but I think if he was in my place he would get upset too. But yeah, I was just on the phone with him and he was like "Hey I saw Tessie today, except she was with some guy or something"..yeah cause that's really what I wanted to hear. I don't want to hear ANYTHING about her..even if it's bad. It may be stupid, he might be right, but hearing absolutely anything about her gets me sad. It's never gonna stop either..it always makes me feel like I come second to her. But he still brings her up and doesn't listen when I say it upsets me, so I guess I'll have to get used to it..:-/ Ugh
When I get back we all need to hang out guys, I miss everyone like a mofo.