Whobajabawhat?!
Time for a random session of random crap that might randomly make your head explode!
Made this for my literature journal. could use improvement but whatever
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Command, Command - Conquer
Rally all the troops within the state
Arm your solders, Load the guns
Draw your plans, Set the stage
Attack, Attack - Relentlessly
Show no signs of our mercy
Ram the doors, Kick the locks
No one may hide from our flocks
Defend, Defend - Hold the line
Set the charges, Place those mines
Shatter anything headed our way
Show your pride on our borderline
Attack, Attack - Devastate
Destroy everything in our wake
Burn your path into history
Have your share of up most glory
Moving, Moving - On your feet
Keep away from that Iron knave
Blow it up with the cannonry
We will head to hell and back
Attack, Attack - Desolate
Purge this land of renegades
Put them in their rightful place
Give their sins a resting case
Maintain, Maintain - Mobilize
Harness the power, Domesticate
Fight to the end, Eradicate
No more time to invigorate
Hurrah, Hurrah - Our last Hurrah
The war is done yet still no end
Every one gone with zero left
A fight to end the end of breath
This is the path of war, never a sin
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That was fun now off to a endless ramble about stuff
Well i went to the doctors not to long ago and found out my medican i was taking has a side effect wear off. (stuff happens when the meds stop working) witch is angriness, negativeness's, exec... witch explains my slightly moodiness when i sigh on aim when i get home. so now im on a new stuff 10mg in the morning and 5mg after i get home to tone down the argavativeness. its odd about the stuff is i tend to be more creative when i take it witch is supposed to help me concentrate. funny how that works.
I feel like describing myself for no reason. other than the fact that i want to.
i have this one huge personality that can rage from crazy/creative to logical/understanding I mostly think this is because in middle school i pretty much bottled all my emotions. with this wide range of personalities i tend to get along with 9/10 people where the 1 is the arrogant jerk who cant comprehend the earth is round. I find that my personalities tend to mimic those around me. if the person is logical im logical. if their crazy im crazy. just like my art work can range from nice pictures and poses to a guy who's body is being slowly eaten away in a horrid mess. I can act like a jerk at times and a smart ass at others but luckily i do it in a way that shows im completely kidding when i say anything bad.
Man i love myself. i can hardly find anything about me i don't like. On the exterior i show mostly overall happiness. but that depends again on the person im around. i just relized that my mimicking personalities theories doesnt quite fit. take Danny for instance. he's a hardworking student with large moral values. i act like a slacker and medical around him. but we still get along. Maby my subconscious can match my personality that can match the person im around. i find this kinda aquard to say but i love hugs, a lot. i hug people whenever i get the chance to. this of course is limited to mainly girls and that's even limited to the fact that it might look like im hitting on her. I sure its mainly physical contact with people. i tend to act like a flirt when im hanging out at Perez's house with a few other people.
I don't really know my own strength. i could be joking around with people and accdently use to much force and hurt them. like when i fake strangle people once in a wile i tend to use too much force in the shaking. this doesn't bother me too much though. More along the lines i find myself naturally trying to figure out how strong i am. I'm not that strong but i still test myself from picking people up to wrestling with people bigger than me. i find this part linking back to my mental points. over the years of being the loser and bullied i have created a mental wall. any one can call me a mother-fucker, punk ass weakling. then i just stand up and say "if your going to insult me do it so i care." i explained this to my therapist Dr. Blum and he agreed that this kind of mental capabilities could only be made over a good 5 years. then i thought. i have something that not to many people have, the capabilities to assist a situation and revert it to an advantage to me. like my one example.
I'm on the bus sitting next to my friend Joseph(SP) who gets bullied a lot. a guy walks up with the old "im your buddy" Billie tatic where they act like your friend. he did the "High five man!" Joseph tired to ignore him but still showed facial discontent. the Billie moved to me and tried the same thing. i jump up act super excited "Aw YA man you my best Pal EVER" i high five him then give him a hug. he is instantly freaked out and walks off as fast as he can.
Now you take that situation and think. OK he is trying to make me change my mood witch in turn shows he can change me at his will and subconsciously gives him a feeling of power. if you change your mood in the exact opposite way then it puts him in the discontent and hands all control over to you. It never hit me until 1 month ago i want to be a phyritrist.
Pulling back to my personality i have found the best way to be generally accepted is to be a outgoing, energetic, self loving guy. when you act happy all the time (excluding certain moments such as mention of death) people around you tend to mimic your feelings and feel happy about themselves and others. witch gives a good imprint on them of the feeling of happiness. as long as you entertain you in the clear. most of my friends are just links in chains. for instance i met Beckey in anime club but didnt really become friends until graphic communications where she is excluded from most of her friends which allows a door opening for the acceptance of a new friend. she linked to Michal, Perez, and 2 other Michal's. this in turn can lead to out of the way friends like Hannah (not at CHS), Sarah. that i would have never of met. this attitude can even work from older to younger people. like being a freshmen i got into the Otkiou Syndict witch was like an add on to the anime club. this i got to come into contact with sinors and whatnot.
Now my hands hurt...
Made this for my literature journal. could use improvement but whatever
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Command, Command - Conquer
Rally all the troops within the state
Arm your solders, Load the guns
Draw your plans, Set the stage
Attack, Attack - Relentlessly
Show no signs of our mercy
Ram the doors, Kick the locks
No one may hide from our flocks
Defend, Defend - Hold the line
Set the charges, Place those mines
Shatter anything headed our way
Show your pride on our borderline
Attack, Attack - Devastate
Destroy everything in our wake
Burn your path into history
Have your share of up most glory
Moving, Moving - On your feet
Keep away from that Iron knave
Blow it up with the cannonry
We will head to hell and back
Attack, Attack - Desolate
Purge this land of renegades
Put them in their rightful place
Give their sins a resting case
Maintain, Maintain - Mobilize
Harness the power, Domesticate
Fight to the end, Eradicate
No more time to invigorate
Hurrah, Hurrah - Our last Hurrah
The war is done yet still no end
Every one gone with zero left
A fight to end the end of breath
This is the path of war, never a sin
------------------------------------
That was fun now off to a endless ramble about stuff
Well i went to the doctors not to long ago and found out my medican i was taking has a side effect wear off. (stuff happens when the meds stop working) witch is angriness, negativeness's, exec... witch explains my slightly moodiness when i sigh on aim when i get home. so now im on a new stuff 10mg in the morning and 5mg after i get home to tone down the argavativeness. its odd about the stuff is i tend to be more creative when i take it witch is supposed to help me concentrate. funny how that works.
I feel like describing myself for no reason. other than the fact that i want to.
i have this one huge personality that can rage from crazy/creative to logical/understanding I mostly think this is because in middle school i pretty much bottled all my emotions. with this wide range of personalities i tend to get along with 9/10 people where the 1 is the arrogant jerk who cant comprehend the earth is round. I find that my personalities tend to mimic those around me. if the person is logical im logical. if their crazy im crazy. just like my art work can range from nice pictures and poses to a guy who's body is being slowly eaten away in a horrid mess. I can act like a jerk at times and a smart ass at others but luckily i do it in a way that shows im completely kidding when i say anything bad.
Man i love myself. i can hardly find anything about me i don't like. On the exterior i show mostly overall happiness. but that depends again on the person im around. i just relized that my mimicking personalities theories doesnt quite fit. take Danny for instance. he's a hardworking student with large moral values. i act like a slacker and medical around him. but we still get along. Maby my subconscious can match my personality that can match the person im around. i find this kinda aquard to say but i love hugs, a lot. i hug people whenever i get the chance to. this of course is limited to mainly girls and that's even limited to the fact that it might look like im hitting on her. I sure its mainly physical contact with people. i tend to act like a flirt when im hanging out at Perez's house with a few other people.
I don't really know my own strength. i could be joking around with people and accdently use to much force and hurt them. like when i fake strangle people once in a wile i tend to use too much force in the shaking. this doesn't bother me too much though. More along the lines i find myself naturally trying to figure out how strong i am. I'm not that strong but i still test myself from picking people up to wrestling with people bigger than me. i find this part linking back to my mental points. over the years of being the loser and bullied i have created a mental wall. any one can call me a mother-fucker, punk ass weakling. then i just stand up and say "if your going to insult me do it so i care." i explained this to my therapist Dr. Blum and he agreed that this kind of mental capabilities could only be made over a good 5 years. then i thought. i have something that not to many people have, the capabilities to assist a situation and revert it to an advantage to me. like my one example.
I'm on the bus sitting next to my friend Joseph(SP) who gets bullied a lot. a guy walks up with the old "im your buddy" Billie tatic where they act like your friend. he did the "High five man!" Joseph tired to ignore him but still showed facial discontent. the Billie moved to me and tried the same thing. i jump up act super excited "Aw YA man you my best Pal EVER" i high five him then give him a hug. he is instantly freaked out and walks off as fast as he can.
Now you take that situation and think. OK he is trying to make me change my mood witch in turn shows he can change me at his will and subconsciously gives him a feeling of power. if you change your mood in the exact opposite way then it puts him in the discontent and hands all control over to you. It never hit me until 1 month ago i want to be a phyritrist.
Pulling back to my personality i have found the best way to be generally accepted is to be a outgoing, energetic, self loving guy. when you act happy all the time (excluding certain moments such as mention of death) people around you tend to mimic your feelings and feel happy about themselves and others. witch gives a good imprint on them of the feeling of happiness. as long as you entertain you in the clear. most of my friends are just links in chains. for instance i met Beckey in anime club but didnt really become friends until graphic communications where she is excluded from most of her friends which allows a door opening for the acceptance of a new friend. she linked to Michal, Perez, and 2 other Michal's. this in turn can lead to out of the way friends like Hannah (not at CHS), Sarah. that i would have never of met. this attitude can even work from older to younger people. like being a freshmen i got into the Otkiou Syndict witch was like an add on to the anime club. this i got to come into contact with sinors and whatnot.
Now my hands hurt...