Man this part of my life is really getting to me
Ok on saterday i was hanging out with pretz and outhers watcing a movie, pretz and kristina where attached like aways and angela and bovna where sitting on the couch. i was with Sara (not at our school) anyway i would say we had a little higher than friend relationship but she would keep talking about how im 15 and shes 19. "if only you where older" bascily was the punch line of all of her jokes. well she starts screening through my cell phone and finds the name Oakley.
"hay you know Oakley?"
"Ya shes my sister"
"... wait is your last name sutherland"
"uhhh ya.."
Then she starts freking out and jumps out of the chair bouth of us where sitting in and starts pracing around quickly muttering things like ohgod... and im sitting in the chair going What the... so she sits on the couch wile im still sitting in solotary confindment in the big chair. after wallowing in my own dispare for a wile i go to the bath room. and when i come out shes standing there wanting to talk to me. apperntly she and my sister oakely had the same AP art class, Boy that was odd... any way she appologices for over reacting and we go finish the movie in the same chair (Yay!)
But the next day it really gets me thinking. Why is it that i make friends that are always older than me... shure i have friends like danny and spencer but the fact that 70% of all my friends are over 16 puts me in to a sitiuation. then i think, i have always been a social outcast for my own grades so i try to make friends with people not of my grade mostly i find them on my bus. but once again i keep thinking. i have been the youngest person of my family and they are mostly around 2-6 years ahead of me.
but in the end does age really matter? Once again i can never win and that is the rule of life.
The biggest question on my mind is does Sara really like me? or is it from the lack of boys at an all girl collage that is the reason? its all soo confusing. i really dont mind it. Its odd i dont know what it is about my personality that some girls just fall into my lap at times, but i really dont think its my looks. i mean take Sara gao for instance. i can tell she likes me. but why me? is it my wide varity of personalitys? my cherryness? or what?
man this is the seconed time this sorta sitituation happen to me. there was this girl hanna (also not of our school) i liked her and i think she liked me but it dident really go anywhere i thoght it was becaues she was head over heals for this outher guy. but then beckey sais that it was becaues i was once again younger than she was... that was a mood dampner. This is really annoing with the fact that these two girls like me and i like them but if i where to ask them on a date they would say no.
Huh... i just realized that i have never asked any one on a date ever... never had a girl friend, man im just the guy thats fun to hang around.
"hay you know Oakley?"
"Ya shes my sister"
"... wait is your last name sutherland"
"uhhh ya.."
Then she starts freking out and jumps out of the chair bouth of us where sitting in and starts pracing around quickly muttering things like ohgod... and im sitting in the chair going What the... so she sits on the couch wile im still sitting in solotary confindment in the big chair. after wallowing in my own dispare for a wile i go to the bath room. and when i come out shes standing there wanting to talk to me. apperntly she and my sister oakely had the same AP art class, Boy that was odd... any way she appologices for over reacting and we go finish the movie in the same chair (Yay!)
But the next day it really gets me thinking. Why is it that i make friends that are always older than me... shure i have friends like danny and spencer but the fact that 70% of all my friends are over 16 puts me in to a sitiuation. then i think, i have always been a social outcast for my own grades so i try to make friends with people not of my grade mostly i find them on my bus. but once again i keep thinking. i have been the youngest person of my family and they are mostly around 2-6 years ahead of me.
but in the end does age really matter? Once again i can never win and that is the rule of life.
The biggest question on my mind is does Sara really like me? or is it from the lack of boys at an all girl collage that is the reason? its all soo confusing. i really dont mind it. Its odd i dont know what it is about my personality that some girls just fall into my lap at times, but i really dont think its my looks. i mean take Sara gao for instance. i can tell she likes me. but why me? is it my wide varity of personalitys? my cherryness? or what?
man this is the seconed time this sorta sitituation happen to me. there was this girl hanna (also not of our school) i liked her and i think she liked me but it dident really go anywhere i thoght it was becaues she was head over heals for this outher guy. but then beckey sais that it was becaues i was once again younger than she was... that was a mood dampner. This is really annoing with the fact that these two girls like me and i like them but if i where to ask them on a date they would say no.
Huh... i just realized that i have never asked any one on a date ever... never had a girl friend, man im just the guy thats fun to hang around.