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Got my haircut today and met 2 good old friends. Which makes me wish i still lived in glasgow, i miss my friends and how easy it was to get around if i wanted to just go out. I miss the random phone calls to get up and go out and just 5 friends havin a good time wether it be drinking, cinema, general piss about. I read over my yearbook and my shirt everyone signed plus looked at the party photos with the cycle pictures, its got me depressed though I just miss the old days. Soon i will pass my driving test and i will be able to travel into glasgow and visit my girlfriend practically whenever i want, which is always good.
Today i also found out im not alone in only seeing my girlfriend once a week. Glad i can cheer someone else up and not myself even though what i said also applies to me yet i dont see it that way... pointless.
College; Lauren fears the day i go back for the wrong reasons. I have no concern about other girls other than friendship, but i need money... Many part time jobs that dont want u working saturday? let me know. Who knows might not even get accepted still waitin on the damn paperwork.
Girlfriend; never want to lose just at times when i dont get to see her i feel as if ive lost her, cant explain, best thing thats happened to me in years. Even if she does make me jealous with making pancakes and not sharing. I miss the hugs, i miss her smile, i miss her. She has a hard time talkin about deep thoughts, She has fears of all the silly matters like i do with her. Wether its lack of trust because of her past or insecurity either way, ill be there for her. Ive had dreams of her just smiling before i wake, and shes always on my mind before i sleep. End: no matter what happens i will be there for her, no matter what.
For once im not my optimistic self.
Today i also found out im not alone in only seeing my girlfriend once a week. Glad i can cheer someone else up and not myself even though what i said also applies to me yet i dont see it that way... pointless.
College; Lauren fears the day i go back for the wrong reasons. I have no concern about other girls other than friendship, but i need money... Many part time jobs that dont want u working saturday? let me know. Who knows might not even get accepted still waitin on the damn paperwork.
Girlfriend; never want to lose just at times when i dont get to see her i feel as if ive lost her, cant explain, best thing thats happened to me in years. Even if she does make me jealous with making pancakes and not sharing. I miss the hugs, i miss her smile, i miss her. She has a hard time talkin about deep thoughts, She has fears of all the silly matters like i do with her. Wether its lack of trust because of her past or insecurity either way, ill be there for her. Ive had dreams of her just smiling before i wake, and shes always on my mind before i sleep. End: no matter what happens i will be there for her, no matter what.
For once im not my optimistic self.