i want to die...
...so very badly.
but i won't.
because i love everyone else too much to leave them with this mess.
to leave my mess behind.
and i'm stronger than i'm acting.
i'm stronger than this.
i lost it, though.
i lost my strength.
this is all my fault.
i'm so lost.
i need someone to hug me and tell me...
"i know you're not okay...
i know you're not happy...
i know all this...
but, i still love you."
i'm not ready to die, anyways.
i'm not ready to die.
because i've barely lived.
i'm having a bad week.