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[funnykid593]

A Slate Of
GrimeCovers The
Eyes Of TheAbyssW
eCanT HurtAny
MoreAll
ThatSLeftIsLove

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the writings of a counterfeit man,
in search of solace in a sense of
simultaneity:
I am a counterfeit man
walking among counterfeit men
drowning my reflections
on the dry riverbank

where did we go wrong?
I was real once
then a curse, a burden came
and we fled, under its wait

into our selves

even as it's chipped away
the free-est man feels its effects
this weighty unreality

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love (unrequited)

the sorrow that stings strongest
is a pinprick through the heart
I am lost
I don't want to see my world
not because I don't like it
but because it has risks

climb up that net
to the top of the fun house
take in the whole carnival
but don't ride the rides

I just like to be unhappy
if I didn't, I'd have nothing
to be unhappy about now

it's easy to fall for a dream
to pine for this "unrequited love"

because, when I do
I can hide somewhere between
sorrow and angst
and pretend that I don't have happiness

because happiness is a risk
and so it scares me

well, good. let the fear overwhelm me.
immersed in it, I will not emerge
unscathed
I will have to feel something
I will have to be vulnerable
my defenses will be torn apart
my joy wil be unquenchable

I AM

and someone I love will someday
love me in the same way

I will find someone to share
my life and my bed with
not just either/or