It's Reeeeeally Early....
so yeah, i killing time at 2am cuz i was suppose to get up in another hour or so, but i was sick of sitting there in bed, i couldnt and didnt want to sleep...thats what the 6hr plane ride is for *fairy grin*
so yeah, nothing new with me life really, cept im really confused...see i have this problem of girls lately.....i like 3 of em....ym current whining complaint is "y the **** are there so many hot gurls in the world!!"...yeah, well they are Mary, Jen, and the infamous Annie *dun dun duuun!*....sry i had to do that...anyhow....so yeah, the problem with Mary is two-fold....one, she doesnt like me, and so obviously that would present a slight problem...and the second is she lives out in freaking livermoore, so thatd b quite difficult, especially considering my parents. Also ive liked her before and the last time i did like her i made some really stupid mistakes and stuff which id rather not think about since they're really embarrassing....and damn i can type fast this early in the morning...lol.....anyhow, so yeah, the last time i like mary i did stupid things, one of the lesser ones, being getting jealous, and that is normally a really big mistake so u can imagine how bad the other were...*blush*...as for annie ive also liked her before but so did a friend of mine at the time, and again i made stupid mistakes....i let me liking her get in the way of that friendship and almost lost a friend who now ive seen is a really cool guy, and i think itd suck if it was any other way....that and of course she, too, doesnt like me...so those too are a no-no....as for the last one, Jen....shes a good friend, lives really close, goes to my school, is cute, funny, wierd like me, the works...i use to like her a while back and she wasnt sure if she liked me or not and we were the talk of a good portion of the frosh class for some time...as for now?..well....im quite confused about it, and pissed that i cant talk to her to straighten it out before i go, which is something that i wanted to do since im going to be gone for some time.....btw the trip im going on is Choir Tour 2002(YEAH BABY!!!) and we're flyinh in Atlanta,Georgia, at 2pm, leaving at 6 am.....and then we go all through the south n such, ya kno, lousianna, mississippi, alabama...etc..and we sing, and we end up in florida and we get to sing in Walt Disney World!!!! wooohoo! we're going to wreak havoc!!!.....anyhow, back to Jen...so yeah, i mean for the last week or two ive thought she might like me, cuz she was really flirting with me a lot, and she doesnt always do that....we were talking almost everyday, we hung out all the time...and juz her general manner around me was that of a gurl that likes me....i can normally tell, not to brag....and then i straight up asked her, but i put the question of whether or not she liked me next to another question cuz i was tryin to be all slick, but what she did was juz not answer the one i actually wanted her to answer, which was whether or not she liked me...so that kinda made me think she might like me and juz purposely avoided the question....but now i think she might have either missed it, or not wanted to answer cuz she didnt.....i think that because my friend Ella told me that she doesnt like me.....i was talking to her the other day and i was telling her that i couldnt go to her b-day party which was last night....er tonight...which ever...anyhow, i was telling her i couldnt go cuz my mom had went on rampage and grounded me...the usual story....and i was talking to her and i said "yeah, itz for sure, i positivly cant come" and shes said in return "oh, ok...Jen is gonna be really pissed" and at first i thought "oh, i see, and ur not?" then it registered what she said, and i said "wait wait...Jen...is gonna be pissed??" and she blurts out "No Matt, she doesnt like you..." and i mean...it could be true....but then again Ella has given me answers on things like this b4 that were guesses, and this could be one of them....another thing is that it came a little too quick, kinda like it was planned or something...i dunno....i juz thought it was a little quick of a response....and normally she wouldnt blurt something like that out....or maybe Jen said she didnt and really does, and finally, of course, maybe she really doesnt...but id have a hard time beliving that....not being self-righteous or n\e thing, she juz really seems like she does like me...and another thing....juz the day b4 i had called Ella and told her i couldnt come, i had called Jen on her "celly" and left a voice mail, and then Ella calls back and the second thing out of her mouth after she says hi is "Jen's not here...Do you like her???" and then i heard Jen in the background say "Ella! Gimme the phone!!" and that was that, nothing more of that was said or mentioned....also all of Jen's close friends are always making comments about how Jen and I are gonna "make out" and how jen "rapes me" and Ella is always saying that like Jen is missing me, and all this other random stuff.....so itz getting really confusing me....a lot of the stuff is said to me, in front of me, and i really dont care that much cept for the fact that im all "confussled" as Mary has me saying now....but yeah, i mean i wudnt care bout n\e of it if i was straight on everything, the outcome doesnt matter that much, but i think itx obvious wat i would prefer...haha
so yeah...this entry is long enuff.....
See You Guys in like 10 days
so yeah, nothing new with me life really, cept im really confused...see i have this problem of girls lately.....i like 3 of em....ym current whining complaint is "y the **** are there so many hot gurls in the world!!"...yeah, well they are Mary, Jen, and the infamous Annie *dun dun duuun!*....sry i had to do that...anyhow....so yeah, the problem with Mary is two-fold....one, she doesnt like me, and so obviously that would present a slight problem...and the second is she lives out in freaking livermoore, so thatd b quite difficult, especially considering my parents. Also ive liked her before and the last time i did like her i made some really stupid mistakes and stuff which id rather not think about since they're really embarrassing....and damn i can type fast this early in the morning...lol.....anyhow, so yeah, the last time i like mary i did stupid things, one of the lesser ones, being getting jealous, and that is normally a really big mistake so u can imagine how bad the other were...*blush*...as for annie ive also liked her before but so did a friend of mine at the time, and again i made stupid mistakes....i let me liking her get in the way of that friendship and almost lost a friend who now ive seen is a really cool guy, and i think itd suck if it was any other way....that and of course she, too, doesnt like me...so those too are a no-no....as for the last one, Jen....shes a good friend, lives really close, goes to my school, is cute, funny, wierd like me, the works...i use to like her a while back and she wasnt sure if she liked me or not and we were the talk of a good portion of the frosh class for some time...as for now?..well....im quite confused about it, and pissed that i cant talk to her to straighten it out before i go, which is something that i wanted to do since im going to be gone for some time.....btw the trip im going on is Choir Tour 2002(YEAH BABY!!!) and we're flyinh in Atlanta,Georgia, at 2pm, leaving at 6 am.....and then we go all through the south n such, ya kno, lousianna, mississippi, alabama...etc..and we sing, and we end up in florida and we get to sing in Walt Disney World!!!! wooohoo! we're going to wreak havoc!!!.....anyhow, back to Jen...so yeah, i mean for the last week or two ive thought she might like me, cuz she was really flirting with me a lot, and she doesnt always do that....we were talking almost everyday, we hung out all the time...and juz her general manner around me was that of a gurl that likes me....i can normally tell, not to brag....and then i straight up asked her, but i put the question of whether or not she liked me next to another question cuz i was tryin to be all slick, but what she did was juz not answer the one i actually wanted her to answer, which was whether or not she liked me...so that kinda made me think she might like me and juz purposely avoided the question....but now i think she might have either missed it, or not wanted to answer cuz she didnt.....i think that because my friend Ella told me that she doesnt like me.....i was talking to her the other day and i was telling her that i couldnt go to her b-day party which was last night....er tonight...which ever...anyhow, i was telling her i couldnt go cuz my mom had went on rampage and grounded me...the usual story....and i was talking to her and i said "yeah, itz for sure, i positivly cant come" and shes said in return "oh, ok...Jen is gonna be really pissed" and at first i thought "oh, i see, and ur not?" then it registered what she said, and i said "wait wait...Jen...is gonna be pissed??" and she blurts out "No Matt, she doesnt like you..." and i mean...it could be true....but then again Ella has given me answers on things like this b4 that were guesses, and this could be one of them....another thing is that it came a little too quick, kinda like it was planned or something...i dunno....i juz thought it was a little quick of a response....and normally she wouldnt blurt something like that out....or maybe Jen said she didnt and really does, and finally, of course, maybe she really doesnt...but id have a hard time beliving that....not being self-righteous or n\e thing, she juz really seems like she does like me...and another thing....juz the day b4 i had called Ella and told her i couldnt come, i had called Jen on her "celly" and left a voice mail, and then Ella calls back and the second thing out of her mouth after she says hi is "Jen's not here...Do you like her???" and then i heard Jen in the background say "Ella! Gimme the phone!!" and that was that, nothing more of that was said or mentioned....also all of Jen's close friends are always making comments about how Jen and I are gonna "make out" and how jen "rapes me" and Ella is always saying that like Jen is missing me, and all this other random stuff.....so itz getting really confusing me....a lot of the stuff is said to me, in front of me, and i really dont care that much cept for the fact that im all "confussled" as Mary has me saying now....but yeah, i mean i wudnt care bout n\e of it if i was straight on everything, the outcome doesnt matter that much, but i think itx obvious wat i would prefer...haha
so yeah...this entry is long enuff.....
See You Guys in like 10 days