2011 will be the year of calling out your bullshit
Within the 1st 16 days of this new years. People who have had the nerve to pull some hypocritical bullshit or sweep it under the rug and act like it did not happen bullshit, have been called out on there bullshit by me.
For the past few years I have been slacking on calling out bullshit due to worrying about hurting people's feelings.
But it occurred to me that people who give me bullshit NEVER consider my feelings so ummmm FUCK THAT.
I'm angry. But relief comes when I let people know how I feel no matter what.
When I think people are being fake or insincere to me, I'm calling that shit out.
When people are not giving me the benefit of the doubt nor taking my side on an argument about an obvious valid point, I have
made about a distressing or drama filled situation that I DID NOT CREATE, but I was personally wronged I will call it out
and call it out when people try to sweep shit under the rug like it's fucking ok.
It aint ok.
A few year ago my friend Serge/orochiserge commented
" I miss the old Val who use not take bullshit, who is this person that replaced her, your not the same person "
This was at least 2 years ago he said this to me and it stuck with me since then.
I tried to approach things with a a more forgiving attitude. But it seems like when I'm forgiving that translates into sweep it under the rug and lets forget it happened and and oh hey lets do it to you again cause your a chump.
Fuck you and Fuck no.
2011 is going to be the year of weeding out who really is my friend and who really is not.
Lastly this post is about speaking up for myself.
It feels good to speak up for myself and I will continue to do so, no matter how angry I come off.
If I come off angry then you need to ask yourself what did I do to piss her off and not ask Why is Valerie so angry all the time.
- no bullshit
- no denial
- no skirting the issue
- no enabling negativity through false assurances
- being upfront with my emotions
- not being scared of loosing people
- not being scared of telling the truth no matter how hurtful it may be for the other party involved to hear it
- cater to myself and what I want instead of others
- being more selfish for myself
- placing more value on who I am as a person and why people like me for me
- truth
- truth
- truth
- truth
- truth
I came to this realization via some friendship work drama. I been calling people out like crazy over the past 2 weeks and yes I'm bitch number one, but but bitch number 1's job has gotten easier with each piece of bullshit I have called out.
I been calling people out on the way they been treating me lately leaving them dumbfohunded and a loss for words.
IT FEELS SO GOOD!!
If you treat me bad it's no loss. It seems like people get hurt more by my being frank and point out the real situation than to let them get over on me. I could care less.