gosh.
it seems that everywhere i turn theres so much drama going on. i thought drama was only in like 8th grade cause last year there was so much drama and now it's like...wow. theres so much more. i guess it's what you'd expect for high school and all but i mean half this stuff doesn't even have to do with high school. it's just...life i guess.
all this drama is like sufficating our minds and souls and it's tearing everyone apart! everyone.
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it's crazy and never ending. it's like before there was some people with crappy things..but now it's like it's not crappy it's away of getting something. im not saying everyone that is having all this trouble is seeking attention cause it's not but i mean how can someone so happy in life want to die and leave everything and everyone. and this isn't like a im only playing the part as happy. she's been happy. always has..not a mask or anything and now all of a sudden everything is going goodbye. the worst thing is it's like two people that should mean alot to her that she's focusing on. and the worst part is one of the people involves mike.
for some reason i've always had a gut feeling that mike was always like..i dunno.. playing? i guess. not so much playing but he would tell me one thing then tell someone else. it's hard cause i wanna believe him but i have so many other things coming around me, floating around me telling me not to believe it and theres times where i totally believe my "don't listen to yourself" feeling. theres times that i wish i didn't love him...that i didn't have him in my life and feel so strongly about him because i hate myself for going crazy because im scared and dont' kno what to believe. supposedly he flirts with other girls and i guess i shouldn't really care cause me and him aren't really in a realitionship but i dunno it still bugs me..prolly cause he's always saying he loves me and stuff and i believe it and i hear that he tells someone else that and it crushes me.
i guess i can't really talk much about other peoples drama cause i have alot of it in my life but i just wish i could take away everyone's problems and "drama" and mistakes and make everyone so perfect and innocent again because i just want everyone to be happy cause i hate having to kno someone's sad and stuff. it bugs me.
i say no one understands me right...well maybe it's cause i don't let them..i don't tell people what's going on but when they tell me i kno exactly every single word they preech.
sometimes i wonder what it would be like if the world didn't have any drama at all and then i think...wow the world would be really plain
i dunno. this stuff is so confusing these days. theres no way to escape it but i think the biggest thing bugging me is that the person that i've always run to with my problems, and everything is the person that's causing it all...and the other person that i've always run to with my problems seems so distant from me...
i want a big knife to stab me in my heart and mind and take away every mistake i've ever done, even the good ones...
i don't regret things but theres times i wish i could take my life back and start over...be innocent
all this drama is like sufficating our minds and souls and it's tearing everyone apart! everyone.
blah blah blah
blah blah blah
blah blah blah
blah blah blah
it's crazy and never ending. it's like before there was some people with crappy things..but now it's like it's not crappy it's away of getting something. im not saying everyone that is having all this trouble is seeking attention cause it's not but i mean how can someone so happy in life want to die and leave everything and everyone. and this isn't like a im only playing the part as happy. she's been happy. always has..not a mask or anything and now all of a sudden everything is going goodbye. the worst thing is it's like two people that should mean alot to her that she's focusing on. and the worst part is one of the people involves mike.
for some reason i've always had a gut feeling that mike was always like..i dunno.. playing? i guess. not so much playing but he would tell me one thing then tell someone else. it's hard cause i wanna believe him but i have so many other things coming around me, floating around me telling me not to believe it and theres times where i totally believe my "don't listen to yourself" feeling. theres times that i wish i didn't love him...that i didn't have him in my life and feel so strongly about him because i hate myself for going crazy because im scared and dont' kno what to believe. supposedly he flirts with other girls and i guess i shouldn't really care cause me and him aren't really in a realitionship but i dunno it still bugs me..prolly cause he's always saying he loves me and stuff and i believe it and i hear that he tells someone else that and it crushes me.
i guess i can't really talk much about other peoples drama cause i have alot of it in my life but i just wish i could take away everyone's problems and "drama" and mistakes and make everyone so perfect and innocent again because i just want everyone to be happy cause i hate having to kno someone's sad and stuff. it bugs me.
i say no one understands me right...well maybe it's cause i don't let them..i don't tell people what's going on but when they tell me i kno exactly every single word they preech.
sometimes i wonder what it would be like if the world didn't have any drama at all and then i think...wow the world would be really plain
i dunno. this stuff is so confusing these days. theres no way to escape it but i think the biggest thing bugging me is that the person that i've always run to with my problems, and everything is the person that's causing it all...and the other person that i've always run to with my problems seems so distant from me...
i want a big knife to stab me in my heart and mind and take away every mistake i've ever done, even the good ones...
i don't regret things but theres times i wish i could take my life back and start over...be innocent