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My grandma's in the hospital...
she had a heartattack and she has amonia (spelling?).
I should care right?
I mean... she is my grandma...
but I don't.
I don't care.
My mom doesn't get that I don't want her in my life cause she left to go with him.
My grandma doesn't understand why I hate him so much.
Could it be because he took her away from me?
Could it be because when I would cry from all the yelling he'd tell my mom not to bring me if all I was going to do was cry?
Could it be because he yelled at my mom and said she didn't care about her?
Could it be because he made comments to me and my mother that were rude?
Could it be because he's a disrespectful asshole?
Could it be because he abusses my grandma?
Could it be because he abuses me with the fact that he took her away from me?
Or...
Could it be because now my grandma doesn't care about me, my mom, my nina, my tias, my cuzins, anyone?
Cause she calls my mom a liar and stands up for him?
It's all of that.
So many things happend when she met him.. and when she left..
My mom got more stress put on her because she was always worried about her.
I would cry myself to sleep at night because I missed her and didn't understand exactly why she did it
My mom would yell at me more and more on top of the usual because she was stressed out.
Ackward silences would come about the house after talking with her.
The walls would echo from screaming when my mom would talk with her...
The phone dials...
A ringing pulse.
"Hello?" is on the end.
"Hi. What are you doing?"
...
..
.
Voices start rising.
.
..
...
My mom starts yelling.
Crying.
Echos.
Voices.
Tears.
Dog running.
Scared.
...
..
.
Phone call ends.
.
..
...
Footsteps.
Crying.
Hurting.
Eyes in disgust.
Scared to talk.
Door shuts.
My mom doesn't get why I don't want to see her...
Talk to her..
Breath the same air as her.
................................................................................................
They're making me go see her today...
I'll let you kno how it goes...
If you wanna kno...
Sometimes I wish that I could drift off to sleep and wake up in the part of my life where everything was grand...
Everything...
And then...
Sometimes......
I wish I would drift off to sleep and wake up after all this is over...
When I don't need my family anymore...
When I don't need her anymore...
When I don't need anyone...
she had a heartattack and she has amonia (spelling?).
I should care right?
I mean... she is my grandma...
but I don't.
I don't care.
My mom doesn't get that I don't want her in my life cause she left to go with him.
My grandma doesn't understand why I hate him so much.
Could it be because he took her away from me?
Could it be because when I would cry from all the yelling he'd tell my mom not to bring me if all I was going to do was cry?
Could it be because he yelled at my mom and said she didn't care about her?
Could it be because he made comments to me and my mother that were rude?
Could it be because he's a disrespectful asshole?
Could it be because he abusses my grandma?
Could it be because he abuses me with the fact that he took her away from me?
Or...
Could it be because now my grandma doesn't care about me, my mom, my nina, my tias, my cuzins, anyone?
Cause she calls my mom a liar and stands up for him?
It's all of that.
So many things happend when she met him.. and when she left..
My mom got more stress put on her because she was always worried about her.
I would cry myself to sleep at night because I missed her and didn't understand exactly why she did it
My mom would yell at me more and more on top of the usual because she was stressed out.
Ackward silences would come about the house after talking with her.
The walls would echo from screaming when my mom would talk with her...
The phone dials...
A ringing pulse.
"Hello?" is on the end.
"Hi. What are you doing?"
...
..
.
Voices start rising.
.
..
...
My mom starts yelling.
Crying.
Echos.
Voices.
Tears.
Dog running.
Scared.
...
..
.
Phone call ends.
.
..
...
Footsteps.
Crying.
Hurting.
Eyes in disgust.
Scared to talk.
Door shuts.
My mom doesn't get why I don't want to see her...
Talk to her..
Breath the same air as her.
................................................................................................
They're making me go see her today...
I'll let you kno how it goes...
If you wanna kno...
Sometimes I wish that I could drift off to sleep and wake up in the part of my life where everything was grand...
Everything...
And then...
Sometimes......
I wish I would drift off to sleep and wake up after all this is over...
When I don't need my family anymore...
When I don't need her anymore...
When I don't need anyone...