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It really feels like people are maturing backwards.
Rachele's made two appearances in Pavilions in the past week. She's asked about me, observed me, and just generally been as non-straight-forward as possible in whatever the hell she wants. I'd call her to ask, but I have a feeling that's part of the game.
I'm not playing any games.
Melissa showed up, as well. I still feel really awful about how I treated her. I tried to apologize, but frankly, she was kind of a bitch when I approached her. So I excused myself rather quickly. I wrote her a little note on Facebook later, but I don't have much faith she'll respond.
I'm kind of annoyed that she's held a grudge for this long, but at the same time, it's my own fault she's holding a grudge in the first place. So I guess it is what it is.
In the end, I think I have to give credit to Nicole of all people. Only 19, and she flat-out apologized and took responsibility for her quasi-murder-attempt-threat. She's going to her anger management, paying off the fees, and most importantly, staying away from me. She's moved on, taken her error in stride, and is making herself a better person. I'd be a liar if I said I wasn't impressed, and somewhat envious that I can't be there to see it myself.
I've tried for a very long time to understand people. And I'm finally starting to see the patterns, what information I can actually use to assess people the right way. I'm abandoning my policy to find the good in everyone, because frankly, some people just suck. The further along I go, the more I find my initial impression of a person is usually dead-on, but I just hoped they'd be something else/better.
Now I just hope I can use that wisdom to change people's first impression of me.
Rachele's made two appearances in Pavilions in the past week. She's asked about me, observed me, and just generally been as non-straight-forward as possible in whatever the hell she wants. I'd call her to ask, but I have a feeling that's part of the game.
I'm not playing any games.
Melissa showed up, as well. I still feel really awful about how I treated her. I tried to apologize, but frankly, she was kind of a bitch when I approached her. So I excused myself rather quickly. I wrote her a little note on Facebook later, but I don't have much faith she'll respond.
I'm kind of annoyed that she's held a grudge for this long, but at the same time, it's my own fault she's holding a grudge in the first place. So I guess it is what it is.
In the end, I think I have to give credit to Nicole of all people. Only 19, and she flat-out apologized and took responsibility for her quasi-murder-attempt-threat. She's going to her anger management, paying off the fees, and most importantly, staying away from me. She's moved on, taken her error in stride, and is making herself a better person. I'd be a liar if I said I wasn't impressed, and somewhat envious that I can't be there to see it myself.
I've tried for a very long time to understand people. And I'm finally starting to see the patterns, what information I can actually use to assess people the right way. I'm abandoning my policy to find the good in everyone, because frankly, some people just suck. The further along I go, the more I find my initial impression of a person is usually dead-on, but I just hoped they'd be something else/better.
Now I just hope I can use that wisdom to change people's first impression of me.