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you know what i don't even know why i post on this shit cause no one reads my shit anyway...but whatever. Idk...i feel like lately i been going through a downward spiral where i try hard as i can but i always fall way short of my goal...like now i have to go find another job within a month cause i haven't had hours for three weeks or how i write these pointless songs that are really poems cause i can never find anyone to do band shit with, or how my friends are talented as fuck at music but completely waste the shit cause they always happen to find something more important than to try and have a day doing what they supposably love to do. I'm so tired of how life works and it's stupid fucking games, and how for the littlest shit u have to kiss someone's ass to get. This goes especially for women all they do is clinch on to one dude and take all his shit, while the nice guys do everything and kiss ass and get nothing. And i'll use and example i know some people might get pissed but i really don't give a fuck right now! Like i see how Jeff pours his heart out to Megan or even courtney and they cling on to someone who treats them like shit and doesn't really want them like Alex or Rey(Sorry man but u know it's true) I feel like this is bullshit cause obviously the good guy really loves u,but u wanna follow you're fucking dumbass emotions...ok well then u wiil only continue the same dumbass cycle that u have and keep doing the same dumbass shit u always will. Everyone knows the logical answer to life they just don't wanna believe it. As for me i'll continue to write these stupid fucking poems as jasmine puts it cause that is all they ever were and all they ever will be. My friends don't take me serious about music and never will,and in my search for the right girl i will continue to become more and nore bitter and grow to hate them, and this cycle will continue until i finally die. So yeah i'll make it easy cause if those who choose not to fall victim to life's trechery are assholes then i guess this is my role in this sick sad soap opera, but atleast i admit it.