It worked! Yay!
I've had a lot of times in my life when I have had close friends. But for some reason they have almost always dropped suddenly out of my life with no explanation. Every time it happens, I analyze the situation as best as I can from only my perspective and try to figure out what I did wrong and how to not let it happen again. But the patterns reemerges and again I'm left alone, wondering.
Actually, the last time was pretty obvious. The friend in question was my brother's ex, and even though I though she and I had gotten past that issue, apparently she hadn't. That's fine.
But this time I just can't figure it out. I look over everything I remember doing and I just don't see where I went wrong. Suddenly, she isn't there. One week we're texting pretty much all day, every day, and then nothing. It's been a month, and the only response to anything I've said was today, and it was only "thanks girl". I am at a complete loss. So I sit here and wonder why I even try having a friendship if it's just going to disappear without warning. The last time I was taken so completely off-guard was when my niece Sarah suddenly stopped talking to me after my dad - her grandfather - died. We had been so close, then nothing. Suddenly, she was gone from me and I never had an explanation. It still eats at me whenever I allow myself to think about her.
I know that people suddenly go through stuff that can make them not want to be friends with the same people. I just wish I would get a simple response like "I'm going through stuff and being close with you makes it worse because you make me think about it" or something like that. Instead, I get to sit around with abandonment issues that get worse every time this happens. Honestly, dealing with physical death is easier than this.
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